Jenny,I tried Tricor and could not tolerate it,so I keep looking for something that might work. Gotta run,God bless all of you wonderful friends.

Will be back later, daughters are having a get together for their dad's birthday so gotta go.

Bernadette,maybe you read more into your hubby's comment than what was actually ment; Sometimes things come out totally different than the way it was supposed to sound. I'm sure your long winter adds to your feeling down,but don't be so hard on yourself and read more into a silly comment.

Gotta run for now,have a great weekend everyone.

Barb, you just keep that snow in PA. It's too late in the season for that much white stuff....will be very upset if we get more of it. I know that we will...who am I kidding. Good luck on your trip next week, hope you don't have any bad roads to drive on.

Sharon, maybe you need to get that dress out and model it!! Give him a few reminders. Sure would help some of your problems if you could get on his insurance. My youngest daughter and husband have no insurance right now and I know what a struggle it is. Have you tried any of the free drug cards that are available online? I was surprised at how much they do pay on meds and there is no charge for the card. Let me know if you or anyone else wants the address.
Take care all, hope the sun shines on everyone all weekend. Hugs, Bonnie

Hello everyone,

Read all the posts since I was on. Wow a lot to catch up on.

Sue TN...A while back when my husband's overtime cut back I was really stressing when doing the budget. My faith needed work. My husband was concerned yet takes it in stride more and says God will work it out. So I prayed and asked that my faith in him would grow to just let go and do the best I could do. I practice a visualization of me and him in a boat in a storm just resting. He's in charge and I'm not. I noticed after awhile I saw I was different. Enough so that my husband said you really are different. Later we talked and he said something very insightful to me. He said (my husband) I think you just were in a grieving state of the loss in our finances and now in an acceptance mode. That clicked. I continue pay check to pay check to practice my visualization each week. It helps. Recently do to so many men out on sick leave/reasons there has been changes from high up to have casuals take bids on board. Forced more or less. So my husband now will be starting at 3pm till 12 midnite or later.(we hope b/c of getting overtime) This will be more dock work and less trucking. In late Spring he can look at bids again. So change is coming again. He usually goes to work around 8am each day now. The change will be for me also to work with this new schedule at home. Change usually brings stress and I need to remember to talk to me about it and take care of me during this time. I know though it's not always computed in me so I expect some stress and hope to deal with as best as possible. We have a good relationship and that's important.

Bernadette....I like that yr husband apologized immediately. I know I say things that I regret and also want to be sharp to apologize right away. We are human and working at remembering that when with each other and with others than ourselves. Thanks for yr honesty to share yr feelings. FM needs relationships that work that's the reason for the Wall. Common ground for understanding.

Barb PA...My husband & I prayed for yr sister Carol today and will keep trying to include her in our prayer times. Also I have been told my cholesterol & tryglycerides are genetic. I went to a nutrionist and have a changed diet for yrs. I have lost weight and continue to apply it. Yet the figures go up. I am 60yrs sooo I guess it's another thing to accept. I am on WelChol a non-systemic instead of statin. The statins I have tried gave me muscle pain. Certainly don't need that.

My husband's cold is bad yet it has taken days and he's blowing yet. A Z-pac helped and a day out of work. We found our grand daughter, my son & his wife were all sick with this same cold. I'm grateful not to have got it. Although I got a flare-up very powerfully like none I've had for awhile. Last Mon I started with neck pain which threw my head off that made me therefore nauseated. Tues got up not good to only go into #10 pain level in my whole back. Went to chiro. Helped some and he said we are having flip-flop weather that surely is effecting you. I have been there the last 3 wks. Later with pain continuing I called my masseuse for a chair massage appt. She beat me up & it felt good. I felt great. Wed I woke with stomach pain that continued thru the day yet felt like anxiety. I didn't want to call my counselor for I would not get an appt that day so I prayed what else to do. I thought of the Mental Health Group near my house & called to find out that nite there was a anxiety group mtg. There is I said! I went. I am hoping to build a friendship with someone to talk to when these attacks hit. I have had panic attacks since 17 yrs old. Also memory work on abuse that deals with seasonal triggers. I believe b/c Spring is coming I am having a trigger. FM has anxiety also I understand and I wondered about the days prior to this attack if that brought this on. Not sure. I am on meds for both anxiety and depression. I feel better for now except for usual pains I get that are every day occurrances I live with basically. We had about 6" snow after 80 degrees on Wed. Cold for the next days with increase in temp soon. The weather does play a factor I believe.

Well enough for now as my back is getting worse doing this typing. Blessings to all! Cheryl PA

Correction - I said my husband is bad. No he's better I wanted to say - just blowing his nose.

Amber SC...it's incredible that yr in the medical field and find the fact that docs just don't get it. I guess I think when someone works in that field surely they would know someone who knows about FM. Yet as you said it's not true. I just wonder what it will take - maybe a doc with FM! Sounds very frustrating for you and pray you do find direction in yr field as to put what you know into something fitting for you. Blessings to you.

Cheryl PA

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The sun is shinning,the snow is melting and Dave will be back tomorrow,its a good day.

Can't stay,have to get work done here so I am ready to leave Monday night or Tuesday morning.

Have a great weekend everyone

Sunshine today, makes me feel a little bit better. Hoping to go do some shopping later. I usually only have enough energy for one or two stores. Need oil changed in car and to buy some cat food. Worried about the recent recall on pet foods. They say just canned and pouch varieties, but it makes me wonder about the others. Don't want Miss Kitty to get sick.

Bernadette, I hope you find something for your pain. From experience I know that Chronic pain does nothing for our mental attitude. The reason why most of us are taking anti-depressives. I've been taking methadone for pain for several years now...either it's wearing off or not strong enough as it only helps my back pain and sometimes not even that. Seems I've been in a flare for several months now. Cheese, please....to go with the whine! If you like your job try to stick it out....doing things we like has to help. Sorry I can't help you with 'heal yourself therapy', would like to know more about that myself.

Christen, I tried the Cuddle Ewe mattress pad. It was no help to me at all and rather expensive. I felt no difference between it and my regular mattress but some people swear by it. I think you can send them back within so many days if you don't like them. I didn't get that done.

If everyone else is like me, we're sick of winter and it's not making us feel any better. Can't wait to plant those tomatoes!! Or have hubby plant and I supervise!!
Doris, havn't heard from you for a while. How are things going? Have you moved yet?
Newbies, don't forget to put the Wall in favorites and post. Sometimes we don't get back to you but that doesn't mean we don't read your posts and keep you in our thoughts. New people are what makes this old Wall tick. Also, don't forget to read some of our support and info pages.
Again I have rattled off long enough...thinking of you all...hugs, Bonnie

We have had some mail problems lately and are now trying a new program to catch some of the hundreds of spam mails that we receive.
If anyone has mailed the Blteam or any of our page people within the last few months we may not have seen your mail. Please resend if you have not had an answer from us.
Thanks

I must get going now because Nicole is home from school this week and she says she is hungry. I also have a lot of housework to get done. Have a wonderful week-end, Gentle Hugs from Richard in Tucson...

Some time ago my daughter brought me a starter for friendship bread. It's a bit like sour dough and we really love it. Have some going right now in the bread machine. I put the ingredients in on dough cycle for 2 hours, all the mixing and kneading is done for me. Then I form it into a round loaf and bake it. So easy, something a fibro person can do.
Yesterday we went for a ride and stopped at some friends for a couple hours. Today I am so tired and somewhere managed to pick up a cold. Woke myself up coughing this morning. Something I don't need right now. So afraid it will end up in my chest and I will land in the hospital. I tried to take a nap, managed about an hour...didn't help me much.

Christen, I did answer your post on March 19th and also sent you an email today. I only have experience with the cuddle ewe mattress pad. Didn't work for me. Sorry you didn't get more answers.. Sometimes no one has anything to add as they are looking for a better one themselves.

Sharon (WY) I missed answering your post on anti inflammatory drugs. They do seem to help many of us and since this disease is seen to be associated with arthritis I guess that is why so many doctors prescribe them. There are a lot of different opinions out there about what causes fibro. Whatever works is what we take. Sometimes we even take things that don't work! LOL Not really funny but tis true. I have a friend who swears that when she changed her diet her fibro got better. It works for her. She works 5 days a week and is involved in many community activities, looks like a million bucks and is always cheerful.
Must go lie down again. Today is not a good one.
Hugs to all,

Newbies...just because you don't get email or are not mentioned in a post does not mean we didn't read what you wrote or are not thinking of you. I experienced the same feelings when I first came here...many moons ago! It takes a while to get to know some one and if you did not write about something that applies to the person reading they don't have anything to answer you about. Does that make sense? We do try to welcome every one who comes here, but it doesn't always happen. Most of us suffer from that old thing called fibro fog.

Juanita, don't feel alone, I have missed appts, showed up the wrong day just like you. Have trouble remembering something I was told to do yesterday. Is that getting older or from fibro...maybe both in my case.

Time for me to get a shower and try to make something of this gloomy, foggy day. Don't feel like it but am going to try my best to look happy.
Hugs to all
P.S. Feel free to email me at any time. I will answer you.
bonnie40@omnitelcom.com

   This is me trying to look happy! How did I do? LOL

YoYo, good to hear from you even though a short message. I hope that you are not allergic to anything at work. Know you need this job to get caught up. We miss you too.
BarbPA,are you 'on the road again'? Haven't heard for a while. Always interesting to learn where you are and how things are going for you. I miss traveling all over the country....know I have said before how I love Tenn. in the spring.

Sharon/IL and Bernadette, about diet. I know one thing my friend cut out was sugar. She uses stevia and substitutes for sweeteners, cooking and baking. I tried the real stevia ground leaves and couldn't hack that but there are other ways to buy it. A lady by the name of Mary Moeller, who lectures around the country claims that changing her diet also made her pain free and healthy, no longer having FMS symptoms. She advises avoiding Caffeine, sugar, refined and processed foods. I have her cookbook and nutrition guide book. It's been a long time since I looked at it but will try to look it over and scan some of the recipes. The book also advises against refined flour and suggests substitutes for that and other items we use in cooking.

I have taken up more than my share of this old wall today. (What's new, huh!!) All of you take good care of yourselves, you are important, Hugs around..

I certainly hope I didn't offend anyone.
Please someone email me if you can read but not post.
bonnie40@omnitelcom.com

I need to get a shower and finish the house-work before Nicole gets home at 12:30pm. I hope to post again soon, but I will stiil read daily.
Gentle Hugs from Richard in Tucson...

Hello, I posted a message and wonder where it went? Does anyone know how to retrieve it? Cheryl

The assistance program that Jennifer was talking about can be found at Bonnie
Oops, I really messed up that web site address...hit the wrong key. Trying again.

https://www.pparx.org/Intro.php

Thanks for the Emu Cream info.  

Cheryl, Sorry but there is no way to retrieve your message that I know of. I'm not even sure how my last post got so messed up. LOL....will fix it at the end of the month. Who knows, maybe I will find yours too.

Sue, you feel free to talk. This is a place to vent frustrations. My email was telling you that some of us did respond to you. I think you just missed it. Many of us feel that way when we first come here. I know it took awhile for me to get responses. Thank goodness your sister was able to help relieve some of your stress about the electric bill. Keep holding on, things have to get better for you. Spring is here so hopefully some of our bills will lessen.

Richard, you are such a busy person. No way could I keep up with the things you do. You sound like a great father and husband. Hope you get your vehicle going soon.

It's raining here today, the grass turned green overnight, and the tulips must have grown another 4 inches. Can't wait for them to bloom and put some color in the yard. Hubby has been picking up branches and sticks that we lost in the big ice storm of winter. He's spent 2 days doing it and hardly made a dent. What a mess, we didn't realize how bad until all the snow melted. There are also branches hanging from trees... they didn't break all the way through, but will have to be cut off. Some of our birds are back, I can look out my window to see robins busily looking for food. Nice sight
Will say good-bye for now, take care all..

Hello again, I am trying again to post. I read the posts earlier today and will try now to write what I wrote. Here goes....Richard I appreciate your sharing - it was so real. I gain from real. I realize we need support and info. Sharing your experience (whatever it is) really helps and gets it down to earth for me. I recently sat in a garage with my husband's van for 3hrs(part at a rest. near by)for inspection. It ran over $600. Then I had to come back again to sit another time for two hours. I didn't want to leave it over nite so I could use the car. My husband took mine to work. Paying this was better than buying another car. About three payments and done. It's 1994. We think to buy another used car yet this will do for now till an affordable time. Hope things work out for youl

I remember some talking on depression. I recently had an emotional as well as physical bad flare ups. Three different days. I wanted to question my meds yet this has passed before without doing that. I was concerned the mood change I experienced would set off my husband & I in our communication so we talked it out for him to know I knew I was in a bad place. I wind up getting angry at me which really sets me off when I'm like this. Tues was the physical day where I felt like I was in a basement or thick layer of mud & couldn't get going. I made my mind up I was going to step one foot at a time & push. Often these things pass yet when is the question. I went to Alanon Mtg and 3/4 way thru I felt it leaving. These thoughts are also for the one/ones who find themselves staying in their house and feel trapped. I find this push works. Also like going to Curves when I don't feel like it - it helps. I know it is Spring and this is usually a biggy for me. Weather period. Changes. So I am considering this to be a factor. I just know it was awful and I'm glad it has passed. For now. My grand daughter comes this weekend. She is soon two. She loves playing with our puppy and the puppy likes her. Well I'll go now and blessings and healing to us all. Cheryl PA

Robin, Your Ray sounds like me with wanting to be in the sun and planting a garden. Takes me longer than most but I manage to get some things planted. We love fresh veggies and herbs. I can't wait to buy tomato plants.....going to the greenhouse always lifts my spirits. Days without sun put me down...the last two days have been like that...gloom and doom and misery. LOL Who used to say that on TV??

Cheryl, I find myself being angry at me a lot of the time. It's depressing not to be able to do things I did with ease before. Again, the sun has a lot to do with my depression and anger. When it's shining I always feel better. Do you find that true with you? Right now I am so angry that my house is such a mess... I am still thinking about hiring someone to help but after I found out how much they charge now I decided to give it more thought. If I could get two rooms straightened up I think I could keep it that way. If I wasn't such a pack rat things would be better! Also I had so many hobbies and h obbies mean more 'stuff' around. I'm short of closets to store everything.

Have doc appt. today so need to get ready to go.
Hugs to all and wishes for a better day.

Hello Bex, I haven't had a chance to meet you yet. You must have come to the wall when I was off for months after heart surgery. Sounds like to have an awful lot to deal with. There is always a way, try not to let yourself get so depressed and maybe things will look better. If this man is bothering you so much, causing you to feel worse, then tell him to get lost. I would never let someone else control me to the extent that I couldn't do what I want with my own things. ie. drive my own vehicle!
We need happy stuff in our lives right now.

Fog has moved in here, going to be bad after dark. Sure glad I don't have to go any place tonight. I keep telling myself the sun will shine tomorrow...
Take care all and have a nice weekend if you can.