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Bonnie July 1
SUE, I emailed you, but in case you don't get the email here is a web site to read about the drug, Opana ER. The generic name is oxymorphone.

Read about Opana ER

Hope all are feeling better today. I have been trying to get some outside work done before my next heart procedure. I over-do every day to the point I can no longer stand up straight, but it will be nicer to look at when I am sitting on the deck recovering.
WELCOME to all the new people I see here. Too bad that we have to meet this way, but happy to see you have found us.
Richard, have fun on your vacation, don't just work...you do enough of that at home!


Dee....July 2, 2007
Hi All....will be gone for awhile to try and get through the floods we are having. Today we set off on a mission to find a route to my mother's house. We live just outside Erie, KS and she lives in Independence, KS. Both cities are surrounded with water and it's still coming up. So many homes full of water and washing away. We spent yesterday helping move furniture upstairs at dfferent homes and moved truck loads of items to our shop building until after the water receeds. Couldn't even tell you who's stuff we have but it will still be clean and dry when they need it. No one has flood insurance so it's just devastating. I've lived here all my life and never seen it this bad. Our main highways are washed away and our grocery store and gas stations are gone. It's gonna get bad before it's gets good. If you are one to pray...please do. Well, must go and see if we can reach my mom. Don't think there's a chance but gotta try. Love you all and I'll be back.....Dee


JUANITA JULY 3RD.
JUANITA/TX good morning everyone here on the WALL. hope everyone has great plans for the 4th tomorrow, we are just having a bbq if the weather permits long enough. lol. well i start therpy on my hands next week after i see my rumy. i don't look forword to that but don't seem to have a choice because my hands are worse than before the surgery. i can't even wring out a washcloth.cant put my 3 middle finger up for the number 3. hope you understand what i am saying. still have alot of pain too. i have my disability hearing in three weeks and i am getting nervous i can tell you that. hopefully everything will go ok. please pray that it will. we had some more rain this morning. my koi pond is lmost overflowing. lol well i don't have much to write but did want to express my heartfelt fellings to all who are suffering due to illness and loss of their homes in this floods we are all having. GENTLE HUGGS TO ALL.JUANITA/AUSTIN TX


bex newton
BEX hi folks spent my vacation in a horrific fire! 3,600 acres, 258 homes while i chille on opposite side of lake tahoe, felt so down went home.... but news my doc and I have worked a new med program 3 mon'd it is heaven. ms contin am ms contin noon and 30mg IS instant rlease, 3 pm 30 mg and 100, then at bed 100 ms contin. this works like a dream. i added finnally lexapro i sleep deep. after 10 yrs of searing a plan we found it. i sleep, almost no pain, i might say no pain!!!! no itch no grogy no nothing but bliss. that little 30 mg instant release alows me up and moving while 100 10-12 hr ms contin takes me through the day. do not stop at "no", ther is a pain free solution. please do not stop looking, trying, nothing but a narcotic does not stop our ppain 15 yrs of it along with auto wreck! god bless never say no do not take no!


Cari K. 7-4-07
Cari K. 7-4-07 Happy 4th of July everyone!I am so sorry to hear of the floods in Texas and the fires in Lake Tahoe though.I hope you all fare ok during these trying times.I don't have much to say today as it would just be complaining and there are so many people out there that have it worse than me right now,that it just doesn't seem right. So I'll just wish everyone a happy holiday and be off.Cari K.


Starr in WV 7/4/07
Dee - I'm so sorry to hear about your flooding problems. When I was small my family lost everyting in a flood and even if insurance had been available then, they couldn't have afforded it. We had a cabinet in our family for a long time that my dad made out of wood from the junk yard. I certainly wish you well.

Carol - I'm sorry I haven't been on since your post until now. You asked about thyroid, which a lot of people with fibro have. When I was in my 30's my thyroid was underactive (hypothyroid) which means my metabolism was very slow. You don't have much energy, your skin tends to get dry and itchy, your hair gets dry and tends to fall out. Then one day when I was having my hair washed, my mother noticed a problem with my neck. Turns out I had a goiter, which is caused by the thyroid. Also the thyroid caused my eyes to swell which caused my corneas to split - that is absolutely agonyzing. Then I got pregnant and the thyroid reversed itself - it went overactive (hyperthyroid). That causes you to lose weight and it can make your heart beat too fast, which can be dangerous. It also makes you very nervy and jumpy. My ob/gym got very mad at me because I lost weight during my pregnancy and she kept accusing me of dieting but it wasn't until after Ben was born and my heart rate went sky high that they figured it out. I had surgery and they removed 3/4ths of my thyroid gland, thinking the remaining gland would function normally. A year later it had enlarged again and it looked like I never had any surgery so I took a radioactive pill to completely kill the gland. I have no thyroid gland anymore - I take a thyroid pill everyday and have blood tests at least once a year to see if the level needs adjusted.

My son, who is in his early 30's, also has thyroid trouble. It tends to run in families I think. They tried adjusting his with meds and couldn't so he had his gland destroyed also and takes the medicine. It is much easier to regulate the medication and it is only one small pill a day, not very expensive. He hasn't had any more trouble.

Your thyroid can affect your whole body - your mind, your memory, your cognitive skills, how you feel physically, everything. My friend had a ten-year old son that she was having an extremely hard time with - he was doing badly in school, she had him to a psychologist. Then a doctor decided to check his thyroid because of his mother being on thyroid and turns out his was way too low for his age. Once they got his medicine adjusted right he turned into a normal happy energetic 10-year old, wouldn't know it was the same kid.

I always tell people to be sure they have their thyroid thorougly checked because so many people have it. I hope this helps.

I hope everything had a safe and peaceful 4th.


lisa maupin july 5, k2007
I have had fibromyalgia for 14 years now and have been unable to work the past 3 years and i just got turned down for disability and I wanted to know the 1 most important thing that helped each one of you......Im desperate thanks so much lisa


Seleena 5 Jul 07
Hi Wall! I'm from Ontario Canada. I was diagosed with FM about a year ago. I previously went to a Dr who said it was all in my head. This started, I thought, since I had Mono when I was pregnant with my second child. After reading some of your posts, I have had migraines/bad headaches and extremely painful periods since I was a kid. I use to get bad pains in my ribs and have had bowell problems since a kid. I think I might have had this since I was a kid! It was wonderful reading all your posts and they have answered a lot of questions I had about some symptoms I was having. Lastly, Husbands can't help hugging us hard...they just love us. Mine hasn't learned! Can't wait to meet all of you.


Debbie, TX 7/05/07
Hi Friends, I just wanted to say "Hello" and hope each of you is having a pretty good day. The rains here in North Texas just won't stop. I'm in so much pain, it's unreal. I have to keep going though, and get this packing done. Thankfully, I have something to pack, as so many people have lost all of their belongings to rain or fire lately. Both of my daughters are going through some real tough times, of which I am helpless "to fix", and I can't help but stress out about it...so more added pain.

Lisa, I was turned down my first time also, and I didn't even know I had fibro at the time. I filed again, with a lawyer, and won the second time. The lawyer gets 25% of any back pay that you might have coming. I might could have gotten it the last time, without a lawyer, but I don't have any regrets.,

It seems that we all have or had carpal tunnel. I remember my time dealing with it. Long story short, I went to a carpal doc, he did tests & said I didn't have it, sent me to a nerve doc, nerve doc said I had nerve damage & carpal tunnel, went back to carpal doc, who sent me back to nerve doc, more tests and nerve doc swore it was carpal, carpal doc reluctanly did the surgery, and I got "some" relief...now I figure it was fibro all along.,

I have a question...my finger nails have long raised ridges in them, and two have pitts. Do any of you have this?

Thank you for your time and have a blessed day and may God bless America. :)


Bernadette July 5
Debbie sounds like you have a nutritional deficiency-possibly iron or zinc. It would be a good idea to check the internet for ideas and to take some vitamins. I have found that calcium, b-vitamins, d vitamins, magnesium all help, as does iron.


breni






Libby/TX 7.6.07
Hello to all on the wall....I see lots of new people reaching out to the wall that's so neat. I really hope that you newbies like it here with us. I'm not really anewbie anymore ...but I havn't been on since middle of June. I think the weather is getting us all right now...since this weather is so wide spread with the rain. I have been flaring for a while now ....and yes I'm still having ear problems. I go to the doctor next week to see if I need tubes in my ears. To all the ones with questions about thyroid problems...I too had thyroid problems and had it removed in early twenties with an autoimmune disease problem. BEWARE....bad heat wave begins next week. I hear this wave will hit north to south and east to west. Here we go again...extreme weather that will affect us all. I hate the heat more and more each year. Well wanted to say hi and to wish all the best. I still think of all who goes here. Warm fuzzies to all! Libby


Debbie TX July 7, 2007
Hi Friends,

Bernadette, thanks for the tip on the vitamin supplements. I took a look at my multi-vitamin bottle and I'm getting 100% of some stuff, 29% or less than others..and 0% of iron. I'll get some individual supplements to add to the multi, just as soon as I can afford to. Thanks again!

Juanita, I hope you get some relief for your fingers. My Rhuemmy gave me steriod shots in the palm of both hands (where there were knots) a few months ago. My thumbs and ring fingers were all drawn up. It hurt like #@!! when he made my fingers open, before the shots. The shots also hurt...but...good news...those fingers haven't drawn up again.

To those who hurt as a child...I did too, but it was dismissed as "growing pains", and they were severe. It's weird how some docs just take our money and don't make any attempt to "really" help us. I'm 54 now, and I've just this year found two docs that really listen to my symptoms, run the right tests, and treat the underlying problems, and not "just" the symptoms. I pray that everybody here gets the real help they need. I had to get mad, before I could get glad!

Libby, I hope you really are taking a good long rest. Your husband is right!

Richard, we miss you and hope you are well!

Have a blessed day!


bestamor. 07/08/07
bestamor. 07/08/07. Hello everyone. it has been awhile. We have been busy with family matters. My husband's sister has passed away. mostly because she would not let the doctors do a blood transfusion. She was 65. My age. she also did not like to go to doctors. She was from the old school about doctors. Until about 3 or 4 months ago had not seen a doctor in years. My mother was also in the hospital with bronchitis. And she is 92. And she is getting better. except she has lost her voice. One never knows when and where. Yesterday I hurt so bad. Maybe from stress. warm fuzzies to everyone. I hurt to much to type.


Cheryl 7/9/07`
Cheryl PA

Hello to all,

My foot is healing since surgery and I get the stitches out Wed. Wondering how that will feel. Will find out how long I where this special shoe. My husband has had to drive me every where. Boy, he got a pic of what I do in a week!

We have weather heating up here and the humidity. I'm looking for that to break soon with rain coming. My syptoms are flaring of pain in arm/carpal tunnel area and some nausea along with brain fog.

Carol...I am a thyroid patient - hypo- and first started with bad symptoms of not being able to move quickly, walk was slow, emotions ran high to eventually a break down and in bed for three months. I say it just died. After blood tests and med I began slowly to come around and then is when the FMS symtoms grew high. Lots of reading, talking to others and a doc who diagnosed me brought a lot of help. My carpal tunnel problem began then too. I slowly but continually kept going to walks and eventually exercise at Curves. I am a lot better than I was. My step daughter at 21yrs was diagnosed with hyperthyroid and was very thin. She went thru some real stressful stuff with her Mom. She took the radiation pill and became hypo and then treated with med like I. She had gained a lot of weight then. Eventually all became norm and she looks better and is dealing with some large eyes now. Graves disease. The specialist says her blood levels are ok and keeps a watch. She has pretty eyes and the largest is quite that noticeable to most just we who are close. She does experience anxiety and some mood swings. She hasn't resolved to more meds that would help these things. She is 23 now and works two jobs and goes to area college part time. Busy and stressful as you might imagine. My best thing was to get a specialist for I first started with a fam doc who helped awhile yet I came to a place I needed a specialist. My step daughter & I go to the same office where two of them are. We each have one of them. We share too about all this which is neat to compare what with us.

Beth...I love Curves and found it to be my miracle to getting back a lot of my energy and reduce stress. I use to ache going in or coming out. Now it's neither. I have flare-ups and they know when I do yet I perservere for it does help. There have been days when it's too much of a flare up and then I take a day off. Yet for the most part I am there. It's over 4ys now. I am on a freeze now do to constructive foot surgery on five toes. Two months they say I can go back. I miss it and them. Also I love to take pictures of my garden. I have a garden journal where I write about recent things I have planted, put pictures in of their growth(for comparison) and see what didn't work. Also do some dreaming and planning in my notes of things I'd like to try. I cut pictures of things in magazines and newspapers of interest to me and glue those in also. We are in our house 5yrs and it has been a God send for all the windows I look out I can see something growing for most of the seasons. It's a great other focus to get my mind off of my pain and etc. Your lillies sound pretty.

I read all the posts and am grateful for what all I learn here. It's a great place to keep centered in the fact that others are out there understanding this journey. Cheryl


Libby/TX 7.9.07
Hey everyone...

Well... it's so nice to have most of my mornings off right now. With my service I have been getting more afternoon work and I can have my mornings to get a slow, not stressed and choatic start. When I had certain clients, I was out the door at 5:oo am. This is a nice change, except if I lay up in the bed too long, that can bring on the pain, as we all know!

I had a little bad news come my way yesturday. A client of mine that I usually have contact with often, was found dead at his home on Friday. He and I talked several nights last week, and several days he called into work not feeling well. Anyway...on the nights that he and I ran into each other, I mentioned to him that his lips were white and achy nad he mentioned that he just didn't feel well. He only said he couldn't get over some congestion and didn't feel well. He worked July 4th and didn't call or showup on his Thursday and Friday 3-11 shifts at the hopsital. I thank GOD for his caring and loving coworkers. One girl had a gut feeling and had the cops sent to his home and that's when he was found. He was a healthy man overall and he probably never thought he had anything that bad. This man is a med/tech in the hospital...and I would think that he ran some tests on himself, even thou he may not have gone to the doctor. I havn't heard cause of death yet. I will miss him so much, he was a good person and easy to work with. Life is too short for some and too long and painful for others. God has wonderful plans for us all and I leave that in his hands totally! Well...I guess that's for now. Warm fuzzies to all and have a wonderful day! Libby


Bernadette July 9
DEBBIE so glad to hear that you are checking into vitamins. I had a similar experience with my son. I was giving him vitamins, but found out he was anemic. I went home and checked his vitamins and sure enough, it only provided 33% of his iron. Now i read the labels! CHERYL thanks for such a beautiful post about how you cope with this chronic illness. I too love my garden and have found solace there. I really love my walks with my dog, like you seem to love Curves, and I know that I would go nuts without it. I hope you heal soon and can get back to it. My knee has been hurting lately (my dog has taken one of my walking shoes and hidden it somewhere) because I have been wearing bad shoes to walk in. I will have to buy new ones soon if it doesn't turn up. I had a real surge of gratitude the other day that I am still able to walk and enjoy nature the way I do. My next goal is to implement an at home easy weight lifting routine, but I never seem to get to it. You know how we have to prioritize and I am always juggling between my part time job, my son's playdates and school and sports and my housework.

It seems like with fibro we have to really look at what we want to spend our limited energy on and it really makes us have to "cut the fat" from our lives. We have to frequently reevalute what gives us the most pleasure, what is really necessary, are there people or things we can eliminate because they are not necessary or fulfilling?

When I am juggling like I do, the ball that gets dropped most frequently is my housework, but that makes me crazy because I cannot relax in a filthy home. So recently I realized that I have been doing all the work around the home while my son sits around on the computer or video games. He is eight years old and it is not fair for me to be doing all the work, so I am telling him more to put his own stuff away and to help me with the laundry etc. I have also noticed his aim is better after I've had him clean the toilet a couple times! Oh the joys of having an eight year old boy for a roomate! Anyway, I am realizing that I need to assert my authority with him. Sometimes I am such a nonconfrontational, non leader type and I am so often exhausted or in pain that it is just easier for me to do it or ignore it than to deal with nagging him and having him try to bargain his way out of it. This is short term gain for long term pain. I've got to buck up and follow up with him.

SOmetimes when I am in pain it is easier to just let him do what he wants and this is not fair to either of us. SOmetimes, for example, I am so hurt and exhausted by the end of the night that I just climb into bed and try to get him to brush his teeth and go to bed from there. He of course, doesn't, and I have fallen asleep before him several times. I'll wake up and he'll have finally fallen asleep on the floor of his room or something. This is not good parenting and I know it. On the plus side, I do have friends over for him a couple of times a week, I'm the team parent for his soccer team, and we bike/walk together 2 or 3 times a week. I think that there is a lot of pressure culturally right now to be the perfect parent. Having a chronic illness and trying to take care of myself and live up to that expectation can be really difficult sometimes. I am also trying to cope with adjusting my marriage to the fact that I have a chronic illness. There are so many things I am having to change, like my career ambitions, my concept of myself as a go-getter who does most things better than most people-this fibro is really humbling!! Anyway, I know that I have gone on and on but I know that you all too are trying to readjust relationships and work etc. Thanks for letting me share.


Carol 7/9
CAROL FL 7/9Bernadette...Boy can I relate. I for the longest time was the typical Type A personality...how the mighty has fallen...When I first came to realize how much of my life the Fibro was going to take away, I was devestated and horribly depressed....I was a person who Identified myself by my career and how far up the ladder I could move. Don't get me wrong, I loved my children and adored my husband, but my career was #1. After 6 months of struggling with depression (which made the pain worse, which made the depression worse, etc., etc) I finally realized I needed to change my attitude...QUICK!!! It took a alot of research and trial and error, but I finally found a system of diet, exercise and meds that worked for me. I felt some control again...I learned to "control" the disease as opposed to letting it control me! I gave up my career because it was too many hours and way too much stress and learned to appreciate the little things...like my garden (amazing how many of us love our gardens!) A friend taught me how to quilt and I now design and hand stitch quilts. I've always loved to read and now enjoy a day on the couch with a good book...instead of feeling guilty about getting nothing done. I have been truly blessed with the love and support of a wonderful husband (which is half the battle with this disease) and have learned who my true friends are...they understand when I say I just don't have the energy or I'm in too much pain to socialize. Now, after 17 years I actually can say my bad days are bad, but my good days are very, very good and I've elarned to enjoy them as they come. As for my thyroid...I had an ultrasound and biopsy and the results were negative...no malignancies and my functions are still normal...so I will not worry about the lesions until something changes and be thankful for one less health issue to deal with...Big gentle hugs to all Carol


Jessica (Tigger) 7/9/07
July 9, 2007 Hello. My name is Jessica. I am just looking for someone to talk to. I feel frustrated and alone. I have been trying to figure how to explain FMS to my family and it is hard when it seems impossible to find a dr that believes me and wants to help. We have read info available online but my family says “then why aren’t the drs helping?” So many people think I am exaggerating and tell me I look “fine.” Why doesn’t anyone understand? I just want to be the way I was before. I just want someone to help me. Sorry I am not humorous or upbeat tonight. Jessica (Tigger)


Debbie, TX 7/10/'07
Hi Friends...

First of all, I want to apologize for bad-mouthing past doctors. I'm feeling rather bad for doing that. Fibromyalgia is a mysterious beast than baffles the medical community as well. All of my past docs, were very good people, and I "was" just frustrated. But, now I do have docs who understand, of whom I am very grateful for. I need to quit "reliving" the past, and focus of now and the future. If I offended anyone, I am truly sorry!

Bernadette, thanks again for the vitamin advice...now I have another question...and I have read alot on the net about this, and am still confused. If I am allergic to sulfa, sulphates, sulphites....would't I be allergic to iron, since it is ferrous sulfate? I can't find out if there are good versus bad sulfates, sulfites, etc., for me. Sorry for all the questions...

Bestamor...I'm sorry to hear of your family loss, and illness. Hang in there, Friend, and may God bless you and yours.

I miss gardening, but I enjoy reading about Ya'lls, and I want to at least plant some flowers soon, (with my Hubby's help...he can dig holes, and I'll plant...lol)

Tigger, I think we all understand what you are going through. Even some of my family haven't come to grips with this yet...after all, I look "fat and sassy", as always..."must feel pretty good, at least." I think they are in denial also, afterall, they want "me" back. Ask you doc to refer you to a rheumatologist, (some require referrals). Or call some and see if they require a referral or not. He/she will be your best hope of a diagnosis. I know you get the treatment and understanding that you need. Keep searching until you find one that knows about the fibro beast.

Best wishes, Debbie :)


P.S. Debbie, TX 07/10/07
oh Yeah...thanks Sue and Bonnie for the opana link. I found several other sites about it too, seems it's been around for a year or so. I'll ask my doc about it, (if I can remember to..lol).

Speaking of remembering, I'm going to read about the miracle dog, Bama, right now!

Have a good day... (:o)


Bernadette July 10
DEE how is everything with the flood going? It sounds devastating, I hope that you are OK. JESSICA In my opinion, doctors who keep up with medical progress or are willing to do some research into it can help with fibromyalgia. Those who haven't kept up with the times don't understand it so they blame the patient. I strongly recommend you see a rheumatologist. DEBBIE you'll need to ask your pharmacist about the ferrous sulfite. I read a little about sulfa allergies on the web and it says that sulfite and sulfa allergies are completely different things, and that sulfa allergies are more common than sulfite. Have you been diagnosed with both?

CAROL thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I like to hear from people who have learned (for the most part) to live happily with this illness and are farther along the journey from me. It encourages me and helps me keep my chin up as I adjust to this. I mean,I figure I've got this illness, now God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (I will struggle with pain and I won't be able to do what I used to) the serenity to change the things I can (I will exercise, diet, manage stress and be as positive as possible) and the wisdom to know the difference (still working on it). Anyway, I've gone on and on again, sorry guys.


Caran 7/10/07
Hi All! Yes it was a relief to finally be diagnosed. As a Montessori Teacher I was always on the go and couldn't figure out why I was so sick so much of the time. I too am working on educating friends and family, and I also get the comment "You don't look sick". But, I just do my best and keep on. Cymbalta seems to be working for me, and I'm also on Darvocet for the pain. Good news, I'm getting gentle hugs from my husband now! Caran


Starr in WV 7/11/07
It's 6:00 in the morning and I didn't get to bed until 3:00 a.m. but I'm going to try again.

I read the posts about thyroid. It is amazing how many of us have similar problems - thyroid, carpal tunnel, etc. It is also amazing how many of us were Type A personalities.

I also love Curves but right now I cannot afford to go so I dug out an old stretching/breatching video and am trying to use it and trying to walk some. But I really miss going to Curves and would recommend it to anyone. I have found that if I can get my balance right of mild exercise, diet, etc., I feel better. Obviously I'm off balance now.

As far as parenting goes, I have two grown sons who are very self-sufficient. When they were in grade school they had to put their own laundry away and help with the dishes. When they started junior high they took over complete care of their rooms - changing the beds, cleaning, everything. I stopped going in there - there were some times when I thought the health department was going to come and contend them but they finally got over that. They also started getting themselves up for school with their own alarm clocks, although I was up. Their first year in high school they started being in charge of their own laundry. Plus at some point along the way they took over mowing the grass.

Both of my boys know how to cook - actually they both like to cook - they know how to clean the house, including the laundry, sew on a button and iron a shirt. They also know some basic household and car maintenance. If I had a daughter, she would know the same things. I wasn't diagnosed with fibro then either

Teaching your children how to take care of themselves is teaching them life skills they will also be able to use. When my son was in basic training in the Air Force his squadron he needed to know all that because he had to do his own laundry, etc. He complained to me about how some of the other guys in his squadron didn't know how to do anything and he was mad because they were in some kind of competition and the guys who didn't know how to make a bed or iron their clothes were holding them back.

I found out that open communication with the boys helped and also, being the home room mom or the soccer mom or whatever was a whole lot better for them than making sure their room was spotless. If you want a good example of parenting - watch the Little House on the Prairie reruns and see how much those kids had to do.

I hope everyone had a good night. I'm going to try to get a few hours now. Gentle hugs.


Donna 7/12/2007
Hello everyone, I haven't been on since before the 4th. I have been very busy at work so I haven't had much time to read the posts or catch up with everyone. Debbie, yes I too have the ridges on my fingernails and the notches out of the sides. I used to have nails so hard that I could open my car door lock with them. (just kidding) I take all of the vitamins that Bernadette mentioned except the iron because I don't need the constipation that will come with it. LOL. Carol in Florida, Thank you for your post you said it best and I couldn't have worded it better. Tigger and all the other newbies out there, don't give up, there are a lot of us out here and there are so many books available and many of them have letters and poems that you can use to share with your family and friends to tell them how you feel so that maybe they will understand. Give it some time. Good luck and your not alone.


Richard in Tucson July 13
Hi all I have missed you Just wanted to let you know I am home in Tucson and well. I am recovering from the drive, including a stop overnight in Las Vegas. Talk to you soon Love Richard in Tucson....


Debbie, TX (July) Friday the 13th, 2007
Hi Friends,

I'm in alot of pain today! That big bright yellow ball in the sky was out for a couple of days. My Hubby had a lot to do in the yard, of which I'm not much help anymore. But, I tried to be a good Gopher...you know...Go for this...Go get that, etc. And it was very hot and humid !! So last night, I couldn't sleep well, moaned with every toss and turn. When it was time to get up, well, it felt like a 300 lb. gorilla with boney knees, was grinding those boney knees right into my shoulders and breast bones. After wrestling with that, I tried to stand up, but felt as though I was chained to the bed. After getting the chains off, it felt like someone had put my feet on backwards, as I didn't know if I was coming or going. Then my Hubby said...Honey, I'm so hungry, I could eat a horse! Sadly, we don't own a horse, so I made breakfast, dropping and spilling food all over the kitchen. At least he got full and even complimented my efforts.

Now, as I type this, I've noticed that my left fingers want to type what my right fingers should be typing, so I'm making this short, and laying down... thank goodness, we skipped lunch, but now it's almost time to fix supper... and we live out too far to order pizza.

Take care, Debbie :)

P.S. Glad to see you back Richard. I hope you and your family had a great vacation. Donna, I only ate Rice Chex this morning, and it had 50% of my daily needed dose of iron...think I'll have it again for supper! LOL


jeannie
Hi , I understand I have fibromyalgia ,, and lately haven't been doing so well its like you have lost your life..Being alone it is so much easier because no one understands all the pain..well take care I have sit as long as i can


Lisa 7-14-07
Lisa 7-14-07

Hello everyone.

I have a quick question. Lately I have been getting a sore throat quite regularly. My tonsils feel very swollen and it is awful swallowing. After two days or so everything is back to normal for a couple of weeks. Is this something that anyone else here is experiencing?

By the time I can get into the doctor everything is back to normal.....

Gentle hugs to all! ~Lisa


Debbie, TX July 14, 2007
Hi Friends, I am still in sooooo.. much pain! I "try" to act like it's not so bad, 'cause others still expect "me" to be "me". I boast about my Hubby, but, in reality, he expects way too much from me. I sometimes just don't know what to do. I can't always take care of myself and "everything else" by myself!

Jeannie, you are not alone here...please keep coming back...e-mail me personally...I am a very good listener. I can't give you all the answers, as I am still searching for them myself, but, we are not alone.

Lisa, I too get sore throats, and my ears hurt down deep in my canal or whatever it's called. I assume it's normal for fibro, 'cause I don't have a fever or anything. My eyes are also very blurry, and I feel like I have motion sickness. I "see things moving", that no one else sees. If it wasn't for this forum, I would believe that I was losing my mind. I still can't control my typing...I don't know if anyone else experiences this, but, I feel like I'm spastic. I have to correct my typing so much, and it takes a very long time to get this right.

I pray the best for all of us, and again, I thank Ya'll so much for listening.

Love & Prayer's, Debbie :)


Bernadette July 15
LISA sore throats are a symptom of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. CFS is similar in many ways to Fibromyalgia and often times, people can have both. I suggest you google it and read more about it.

The other day at my son's soccer practice, they had a scrimmage and asked the parents to join. My son came running across the field eagerly begging me to play. I did, even though I knew better. Well, it was a blast and he has so proud of me (I used to play in school). Unfortunately, I lost a little bladder control on the field (thank goodness for dark pants-no one noticed!) and nearly vomited afterwards and was in nightmare pain the next day, but I managed not to make a scene and I'll never regret making that memory for us! Sometimes you just have to go for it, even though it will hurt like hell.

My mom was just here for four days and boy was it nice to have another helping hand with my son. She kept him company while I napped and she even walked the dog a couple of days. Those of you who have supportive family around are so lucky!! I was sad to see her go.


Nevan 7/10?
Hi all, Have not written in quit a while as been busy trying to survive. I am sure some of you are in a very semaler boat.writing today to up date you all and ask for help. hope I do not offend anyone with this but I am in such a bad situation I just don't know what to do. First my up date. Last time I wrote I thought I was doing good. Do you guys get on new meds and find you are doiung great for a short time then it is back to the same old stuff, very flustrating. Was doing so good I tried to go back to work(against docs advice. That did not last long, a week. lol They now have me on new meds, methadone with my vicoden and atidepessant ect> Feel like a pharmace. lol Been in and out of er with extreme stomak pain, may be unrelated but they can not find the problem. In the mean time our landlord asked us rto move so he could sell the house. We could not find a place in 30 days so we bought a 32 travel trailer and found the only rv park that would have us. Put most of our stuff in storage and went camping. lol It is not all bad we ended up in washington next to the river and walking destince from a lake. Very nice. A little crowded with me and wife and kid in that small of a space thought. We had to take out pay day loans to get here and the interist was killing us but we were paying down the loans a little at a time. Now laws change and they took the money from our account which took my wifes whole pay check. We have good insurance but the copays are killing us. My wife makes to much for us to get aid but not enough to keep us afloat. We are hoping to go to collage next year(when we get the laons to go through) so I can get trained at something I can do. Right now how ever we are broke. Over the next 2 weeks we will lose, all our stuff in storage, my wifes ingagment ring,I am out of some of my meds and no way to feel the scripts. Need to see doc but do not have gas or buss fair to get there. Wife will be out of gas in 3 days and losse her job because she can not get there. Advice as to were to turn. If you have extra cash to help. Somone just let me know it will be ok cuase at the moument I don't think I can handle a whole lot more. Wife is getting so upset and starting to be bitchy with me. I know this is hard on her and I feel so bad about it. I feel as though I have been fighting for years and just lost. can not fight any more. Thanks for listening I will watch here for advice today. Sorry to be such a downer. If you want to write me you can at hamonyamongus@yahoo.com but please not bad mouth stuff. I can not hang with it. Nevan


Eva/OK
Hello to everyone. I have enjoyed reading your posts. I have been looking for a support group and I know this is the one for me. I have had fibro for some time..at least 5 years. I was very fortunate to have the dr's i do. I was diagnosed as soon as I finally went to see them. I have tried many, many meds and have not found the right combination yet. I quit my extremely stressful job, rested and got some better. My husband passed away in 2004. I lived with my sister for awhile and soon got better enough that I went back to work. This time with less stress and more physical. During that time I moved into my own home and therefore have all the upkeep to do myself. Needless to say, I'm worse now than ever. I had to quit work again and under the advice of my dr I have filed for SS. I also was a type A personality, doing volunteer work for Girl Scouts, Humane Society, civic orginizations and family reunion coordinator. I was involved in church. I was able to keep my home immaculate my yard was beautiful, etc. I traveled a lot. Now I can hardly drive the 45 miles to my dr and back. In the beginning, my family didn't understand my illness. I gave information to them to educate them. But they didn't understand that one day I could do something and the next I could do nothing. I "was using fibro as a crutch" according to one family member. Over the period of years, I have finally gotten through to them what I am going through. This is where I need a support group. The shear frustration. I find myself hating to ask for help. I find that after shopping, I can't carry in the groceries. How do you all deal with asking for help. My daughter and son in law live next door. Is it fair to always ask them to do everything? My sister wants me to move back in with her. I don't want her to be by caregiver and thats what will happen. Do any of you live alone? how do you manage the upkeep of your homes and yards? Thank you all for "listening".


Nevan 7/15
Eva I so understand and to tell the truth some days I do not manage to keep up the house(trailer) other days you would think I was supperman. Makes me crazy and yes I too have family that thinks I am just faking. Would love to just ring mother in laws neck. Can you get ss or some kind of disability with out a good work histoty? I got one of those ss staments in the mail and the way I understand it I have not worked enough in the last 6 years to get disability. That is why I have not filed. Am I missing somthing?


Barb(Pa) 7/16/07
Hiddy Ho FMily, I'm still home and still working on my house...someday I may get done. I hope everyone had a good 4th and remembered why we celebrate. THANK-YOU to all the military.

Debbie,Tx, The ridges in your nails is common with RSD,you may want to check out www.rsdhope.org and compare your symptoms with those listed. I have both RSD and Fibro.

My hubby is in San Diego today and getting to spend some time with his daughter and granddaughter.

Gotta run for now,my son needs the computer for a bit. Stay well,gentle hugs


Eva/OK 7/17/07
Hi Neven, I don't know that much about SS. But I think there are guidelines about how much you have worked over a period of time. I doubt that I will be successful in my first attempt but its well worth the try. It took my husband 3 years to get his disability, but he was only 38 when he became disabled and looked healthy. It took two attorneys but got it finally. You can get online and check it out or call your local SS office.


Bernadette July 17
Nevan I am so sorry to hear of your crisis right now. Can you sell either your stuff in storage or stuff you have in your trailer on Craig's list? It might help you at least get money for gas to keep your wife's job, which seems essential at this point. Check out any food banks from local churches as well. Also, check out your local Vocational Rehabiliation office (it is part of government and helps pay for school). Make sure that the field you go into is practical and that there is a demand for employees. I would suggest a job that is not a pure desk job (our muscles seize up if we sit too long) or a pure heavy physical job (you know we can't handle that) but something that allows us to take turns moving and resting and is not high stress. That is what has worked best for me. Sorry I can't give any advice on SSI since I have not gone for it, but I can say that I personally am grateful to be working part time. My self esteem suffers enough and I would feel really bad about myself if I was on SSI, but I know that my case is not as desperate as others, and so far, my husband has stuck with me. I am so sorry that you are slipping into poverty. We see this all too often on this site-people who can no longer work or afford their insurance and we watch them going down, their relationships break apart.But I have seen people reach bottom and move back up too. But this illness definitely takes a toll on our self esteem and our relationships and marriages. If you can afford nothing else, I would say keep taking your antidepressants and keep moving and accomplishing as much as you can. I am so sorry to hear about your misfortunes right now and I want you to know that someone cares and understands and is hoping the best for you and that there is always hope. Watch out for that self defeating voice in your head that says there is none. Mine gets awful loud sometimes and it does no good whatsoever to listen to it! Just live in the moment as much as you can.


Starr in WV 7/17/07
Hey - have you seen the late night commercials about the new web site - fibrohope.org. I just check it out - it's very nice.

My one son accidently put a virus on our PC so my other son is trying to fix it. That entails me watching his three kids. Also, I'm still job hunting. That's getting very discouraging. Looks like I might have to try someplace liek Target or something like that

Hi to all the new and old people. Take care everyone.


nevan 7/18
thanks for your input. I have sevaral things up on griegs list. I am trying everything I can think of. If we gwt thru this we will be fine. We just got to get out from under loans and not starve in the prosses. lol I get down sometime and that is when you guys hear me ranting. I get over it and can usualy find a way to stay afloat. Right now I think we could use a loan from a friend or family but are on very shoet supplie of ether. I am going to go to a suport group just to keep my head together. My wife is the only support I have as my family is gone and her mom does not care for me. Boy did I say that nice.lol Any way I am felling better today, just money a pain. lol Hope you all are doing even better than me and that we all do even better tommorow.


Starr in WV 7/17/07
Nevan - please contact all the local churches - one of them may have an emergency fund they can give you a gas voucher from - our local Methodist church does. Also - as suggested, contact the food banks - some of them are run by churches - I'm sure you can get some help from one of them. Call the local Criss-Cross office or whatever in you area does that. This is an agency that helps people find the resources they need. If you don't have a phone or whatever, go to whatever church you are comfortable with and explain to the pastor there your situation and ask them to help you contact any and all people they think could help you.

There might be a clinic you could get medication from. Also, some drug companies will give you free medication in unusual circumstances. You should also contact the Salvation Army and the Red Cross. Even if they cannot help you, they might be able to find someone who can.

I know how hard this is but you have to do this to protect your family - and some day you will be in a position to help someone else. Don't let this get you down, all of us on the wall have struggled with similar problems. I lost my job in May because my boss didn't like me. Hang in there.


Eva/OK 7/18/07
Hi Nevan, That is a good idea about the drug company. I never even thought of that and i should have. My daughter has seizures and the medication she taskes is mega expensive. She does not have insurance and her dr gave her paper work to fill out and send to the drug company. They met the income guidelines and the drug company furnishes the meds completely free of charge! Also, our Wal-Mart has the $4.00 prescription program which helps a bunch if it is the prescription you need. I want to tell you all that this site has helped me tremendously! I thought I was either going crazy or developing Alzhimers! Until I read here that memory loss was common amoung us. One of the MANY crazy things that I have done was forgetting to pay my health insurance in Nov so I made 2 payments in Dec. Then I forgot that I had paid it and paid it again just a few days later. Then sent the Jan payment. I was pretty suprized when I got my insurance statement that I had a huge credit. I didn't believe I did it until I got my bank statements and put the cancelled checks side by side! I forget where I put things......lost dog food for a month and found it in the buffet in my dining room. I was so convinced I was crazy that I had a CAT Scan and MRI. What a relief to find out it was just Fibrofog! Thank you all so much for your posts. I'm having a yard sale tomorrow to help raise enough money to get my dogs yearly shots. I'm already worn our just getting ready. What was I thinking?


Starr in WV 7/18/07
Some of you may have seen the commercials on TV for the new OneTouch Ultra blood meters for diabetics that come in colors. http://www.onetouchgold.com/gold If you go to this web site you can apply to get a free meter. It is a neat site, even if you are not diabetic. You can plan your menu for a whole month based on your likes/dislikes and your calorie needs. It also gives you the recipes and if you don't like one you have the option to change it. The recipes are really good and not complicated. They also have a fitness page that you can use to track your exercise and weight loss. All this is free.

My doctor told me today that I need to have my A1C test done - this should be interesting since I haven't been taking my diabetes medication, although I've been trying to stay on the diet.

Last night was one of those nights - I didn't get to sleep until 3:00 a.m. - so I'm hoping tonight is better. Deep sleep to everyone.


Richard in Tucson
Hi Family; I feel so bad I have not been able to post in such a long time.
My life has been so crazy since I got back from Montana. My wife keeps me so busy, I have very little time to post if any.
Have been missing you all so much. I Hope to be back regularly soon. I want to get up date with you all but as of now it seems impossible.
Welcome to all the Newbies. I hope you keep coming back.
Gentle Hugs to all; Richard in Tucson...


JUANITA JULY 20TH
JUANITA/TX HELLO everyone. just wanted to say hello to all the newbies and old friends as well. i don't get on here much since my hand surgery. my hands are not healing like they are suppose to and i still have alot of pain. sometimes i think they made them worse than they were. i don't think if i had a chance i would do it again.there is so much i can't do nymore and it is very hard to deal with. i have my disability hearing this coming monday and i tell you, i'm scared about it. so any prayers would be apprecated for sure. well we sure have had a lot of rain and i feel it in my bones. lol my rummy dr. gave me a new script called CYCLOBENZAPRINE. i take it before bed. he also told me he can't do any more for me. where is a person suppose to go after that? oh well, i guess it will all work out.well my friends i need to go and do someting, anything productive. GENTLE HUGGS TO ALL. NICE TO HEAR FROM YOU RICHARD. WE HAVE ALL MISSED YOU.JUANITA/TX


Libby/TX 7.20.07
Hello to all... I have not posted this month. I have been busy with all the new symptoms and having to go thru new testing. Some of you may remember that I was having inner ear trouble. I when to my ENT specialist and totally got blown away. I had to have a test on my inner ear for vision and balance. He explained that this was not as easy as stopped up tubes or allergies. WOW...was I scared and I should be cause what I'm having is probably more serious. I will be getting results soon. Please forgive me..but I remember that someone on the wall is dealing with MS.... could that someone please respond to my last post? I'm getting worried and need to talk ...please!!! Everyone out there..please take care of yourselves. I send you all warm fuzzies...love to all! Libby


Dan in ME
7/20/07 Hi everyone, My name is Dan and this is my first time on this sight and hopefully not my last! I was diagnosed with FM finally in September of 04. This was a year after my symptoms appeared following a surgery in Sept. 03. Prior to this I was in the healthcare field for 10 yrs. After FM began, I had to unfortunately resign. I normally have a very high pain threshold, but the pain I experience is so fatiguing that I feel like I have lost a huge part of my life! I had found a medication (Trazadone)that helped my symptoms that I was at least able to go back to work full time in April of 05. It took me over 40 applications to get a new job since I was out of work for 18 months with a health condition. Unfortunately, as time went on I was exhausted after work and my days off were for recuperation. I began missing days, and finally on 1/03/07 I ended up in the hospital because the fatigue was actually depressing my diaphragm and have now been out of work since.I am having a very hard time dealing with this as I was an extremely active person prior. To me it feels like such a loss I'd compare it to paralysis. Anyway, that is were I am at. I guess what I am looking for is how to cope w/ this loss of my life. Any suggestions, let me know. Because at this point, I don't see myself going another 30 years. I had a tremendous love for life but now if I am able to do anything I enjoy, I usually end up paying for it ten fold and don't get the enjoyment as I am doing it. Sorry if this sounds like a downer (No I am not Australian.- that was an attempt at humor!) but I hope someone has some ideas to bring me up (I'm already doing therapy). Well, I have finished for tonight. Hope to here some good words. Thanks, Dan in ME


Sheila Ms
Hello, I haven't been here in a long time. Life has been busy! Since I was last here I was put on medical leave at the post office, I was an RCA, and finally let go. I did try to keep my job but the postmaster found out that I had something other than injuries from the auto accident(fm). My husband at the time was being very un-understanding and I am now divorced and have a fiance that does understand about the fibro. I have guardianship of my 7 month old grandson due to his parents having a drug addition. Of course this is just a short version of my life the last few yrs but it hits the high points. Without my fiance I would not be able to take care of the baby. I can't even imagine doing this alone. I would be impossible. The Dr. just put me on a new med. It's called lyrica. Has anyone else had any experience with it? It really seems to be helping and I haven't been on it but a week. I just hope it doesn't end up being like the vioxx thing. I don't need any more medical problems, especially if it something I can stop. The wall helped me through a very rough period in my life. I found people who didn't think I was crazy and or a hypochondriac. I was questioning my own sanity at the time. Thanks guys!


Sheila Ms
Sorry, I forgot to put the date on my post 7/21/07


Cari K. 7-22-07
Cari K. 7-22-07 hello all,and especially to you Dan,welcome to the wall.I wish I could give you the answers you need but the truth is,you can only do as much as you can.You have to find that certain spot where you can enjoy your activities and not suffer afterwards.It's hard to do but once you find that level,you should be able to live some sort of a "normal" life.There will be days when you can do more,and days when you just can't do as much.I was diagnosed in 2000,so I've had alot of time to figure out how much I can do day by day.My husband and I love to go out on our motorcycle and just ride.But I also know there are days when I just can't.I've also been on Lyrica, and it worked wonders for me for about three weeks,then the symptoms came back as bad as ever.I hope it works better for you all.Richard,it sure was good to hear from you.Hope to hear more soon,gentle hugs,Cari K.


Libby/TX 7.23.07
Hello to all...welcome to you Dan..I too don't have all the answers. I was diagnosed 25 yrs ago with Fm. Not to put a damper on the positive end of things...Dan keep up the therapy because the FM alone will bring on depression...it is a symptom of Fm. The depression comes and it goes as do all the symptoms that you will experence. Each and everyone of us here on the wall have felt the lose of our health and it's true...you will find your way with coping. The one thing to remember is that each day is different...so if you go to bed feeling blue, just remember the next morning you could be singing like a bird. This is what is so confusing to ourselves as well as others...and I think it makes it so hard for others to see the illness in us. I just received a new e-mail from my Fm site that in the FDA's efforts to validate Fm. This is good news!! More will come from this and more doors will be opened. One thing I never understood...is that a lot of us suffering are multi-tasked, self-driven, gitter donners and those certain ones want to label us with Psycological problems..as in we want to be ill!!! I don't think so...I want this to go away and stay away so I can catch up where I had to slow down. I have so many things I want to do and get done. Now in my case...I am going thru more testing because I am having more sypmtoms that to be honest is scaring me and I hope that I don't have more wrong. I am waiting to hear from ENT doc on results as I write to you all.....plesae keep me in your prayers. I took up a lot of room here...so I must close. Please be save and to all the comes here,please stay here and get the support that you need! Sending warm fuzzies to all. Libby


carol happy 7/23/07
Carol Happy I only posted here a few times. I have been so depressed I haven't been fit for consumption for anyone. HA! I've tried to go on like nothing is wrong. I have two grandchildren I love to take care of - 4 and 1 1/2, and a 17 year old teenage son. They just exhaust me, which makes me so mad I just try harder. I had a list of things I wanted to get done this summer before school started back, and I lost the list and feel like I did nothing, yet I push all day long and am so exhausted and hurt so bad I'm getting hateful. I can't even stand myself. I have always been such a strong person and I keep thinking I can push through this like everything else in my life, but I've just about killed myself, and I've got to go back to work on Monday. I did about nothing today, and managed to only take my pain medicine once so far. That's another thing. The doctor is not very happy to give me a narcotic pain medicine, and the pain is so bad I believe I would be suicidal without it. Nobody who has not been there can understand what it feels like to get up day after day hurting so bad you can't hardly move. I try to deny it myself, but I give up. UNCLE. I am going to have to find some way to take better care of myself. I am so sorry to sound so whiney. It's why I haven't posted on here again. I can't think of anything very positive to say. I'm sorry other people hurt like this too. At least I have a good family, and a husband who tries to be supportive. I forget that alot, because I hurt so much. I could try to draw disability. I have it with my job. But I'd have to let my work know and give an end date for work, and then if my disablity didn't go through I'd probably lose my job and have nothing. I've only got to work 8 more years. I pray that I can make it.


Cheryl 7/23/07
Cheryl Pa

Hello to all

I have read from where I last posted. Learning always as I listen. The common ground is the biggy that is helpful.

I have a new computor...Yea!!! It's a delight. My daughter's boyfriend took me and did the shopping. He's comp geek. Truly. He installed it also and I am grateful.

My foot is healing. The swelling is going down. I am in the special shoe yet and therefore cannot drive. That's a biggy for me and my husband who is wonderful even thru this. His trucking hours have changed so all this new stuff(foot & all) is challenging. Wed it will be a month since the surgery.

I have a new granddaughter named Katelynn Marie and have had her here several times with some more coming up. They are moving and I'll watch her during those days.

Yesterday I feel down the stairs half way. Called to my husband and then said I am afraid to move for something might hurt. I was going slow yet somehow the carpet on the stairs became glass and down I went. My right arm was like a wing catching a stair as I sat hard hitting my back against the step. Too my amazement today I am pretty good. I did take some pills, use my bio-freeze, have my husband massage the area and just rest it some. Moving is best so it doesn't freeze up in the muscles. I believe I bruised the muscle. Dealing with FMS gave me a lot to work with for my muscles and pain.

Bernadette...Did you say you are married? I was wondering if he helps with the parenting? I liked what Starr wrote and agree. Behaviors grow bigger when they get older so it is good you are doing all these things now. Prioritizing is great concerning yourself for as I was told I am important. I heard what you said about affording Curves yet I wonder if there is anyone you can exercise with for I find I do better if I am with others. On my own is discpline I might do but eventually lose it. Boring also.

Carol...great news about your thyroid! I love your life look over it all. I deal with thyroid and take synthroid. It's years now and I am good. See a speacilist and feel good about that.

Getting late here so to all a good nite and week ahead.Cheryl


Cheryl 7/23/07
Cheryl PA...I fell down the stairs. Correction. Yes and I did feel. Ha,Ha, Bye


Cris/AZ
Hello all. It has at least been six months or so since I posted. People like us have a tendancy to drop off the face of the earth for a while don't we. I finally felt up to catching up with you all. Richard- You are a sweet heart. I hope your finding time to enjoy your beautiful deck you spent so much time building. Take it easy. Jeannie- I know the feeling, like just by being around people you feel like you have to constantly explain yourself. Have you ever noticed how so many people suddenly get amnesia about your illness everytime they see you. It makes you feel like just because I'm having a half way decent day I hope they don't think I'm suddenly cured. That's how I feel anyway. Lisa-Sorry you have a sore throat. I do too. I think it's one of the many problems we can add to the pile. Starr- I hope your sleeping ok. Sleep has so much to do with my pain. Melatonin has helped me quite a bit. Bernadette-Bless your spirit. I know we have to pay such a high price for a slice of normalcy.YOU GO GIRL!!!!Nevan-I hope you are doing better. If you are going to apply for SS it is my suggestion that you lawyer up from the beginning. Most lawyers won't make you pay up front. And the money is retro-active. Your lawyers will be payed from the back pay of the ss. I am in the middle of mine and started a year ago. Please don't forget that our spouses have to go through the process of greiving as well, and some people take a lot longer than others. As far as Methadone be carefull. I was on it for quite a while, it was the only thing that made me function. If you ever decide to come off it do a lot of research. It will be one of the most Physical, Mental, and spiritaul warfares in your life. I hope I'm not scaring you. It is different for everyone. Look into Subutex if that time ever comes.(if you want to e-mail me my e-mail is aroraglory12@cox.net just put from the wall in the subject line so I know who it's from) Life is always a fight but it's other things too and you have to hold on to those things with everything you have. I don't have much family myself and the family I have is not very helpful. Eva- My husband is deployed for the 2nd time to Afghanistan. He is a sniper for the army. He has been in major combat. His tour is 1 and 1/2 years. I know it's hard to be alone. Before he left we bought a house way far away from everyone I know. I know it's hard to ask for help. But you have to remember your not the same person you were and that's not a bad thing. I bet you helped people whenever you could when you were well. Now it's your turn. Someday you may be able to return the favor. People do things for you because they love you, If they didn't they wouldn't be doing those things. Barb-Thanks for supporting the troops they need all the prayers we can muster. People are dying were my husband is stationed. Their water has had fecal matter in it. And my husband has been without power and airconditioning for quite a while. We even have to pay out of our own pocket to get a decent scope for his weapon to keep him alive. They need our prayers. Juanita- Count on my prayers. Find a new doctor. I suggest an Internal Medicine Doctor. Don't ever let doctors let you lose hope.Be patient. God will come through. Libby- I hope your tests come back ok. I will be praying for you. Dan- I don't know you but if I did I would give you a big hug and tell you to read "A Purpose Driven Life" working 9 to 5 may not be what your here for. I hope you find your answer. Sheila- You should be so proud of yourself for hanging in there. Congrats on your fiance. I took Lyrica for a while and had bad side effects. I have heard it has done wonders for others so just wait it out. Carol- If I may step over the line for a moment and give you my opinion. I'm just now coming out of a similair situation. My advice is slow down, get a new doctor, learn to be a little more selfish, Let your children worry about their children. You just enjoy them. Slow down and listen to your body. Quiet your mind and you'll find the answers and the strength to get through the next 8 years and more. God Bless. Cheryl- Congrats on your grandaughter. I fell pretty hard myself a few days ago. Hope your feeling better. To all- I hope I haven't missed anyone. I hope that I have helped and not been to intrusive. I empathize with all of you and will praying for you all. Gentle Hugs. Crishanna


Jude July 24th 2007
Hello, thank you for letting me post. My name is Jude and I have suffered with fibro for about 20 years, I'm so glad it now has a name. I'm 66 and my daughter who is 48 suffers from it also. I hope all of you are having a some what good day. there are so many with this condition. take care.


JUANITA JULY 25TH
JUANITA/TX good wed. morning to you all, i just wanted to let everyone that i apprecate all your prayers for me. i had my disability hearing monday and i didnt feel it went well but my lawyer told me that it did and that i got my disabilty. i asked him how he knew as the judge told me he would send me his decesion in the mail. well my lawyer says that he knows because the judge stopped the hearing early and that he put my disability date on the day i filed instead of my 50th birthday in oct. and he also never asked the vocational dr. any questions on jobs that i can do. he told me it could take 30-90 days for my letter from the judge and another 30-60 days for my benifits to start. who know but i am so happy its over, i dont think i could have stood another hearing like that. i felt that he didnt beleive anything i said but i guess i was wrong . my lawyer knows this judge pretty well and know how he does things so i guess i have to trust my lawyer. THANK YOU CHERYL, PAULINE AND RICHARD FOR your e-mails of encouragment thru this. we are all so lucky to have found THE WALL and all the friends here. i have to go now.GENTLE HUGGS TO ALL.JUANITA


Eva/OK 7/25/07
Hello to everyone! I have been off for a few days and have had myself a pretty good pitty party! My Female Cockatiel died. She woke me up in the middle of the night and I couldn't do anything but watch and talk to her as she died. I think it must have been pneumonia. I know she is just a pet but she left a void in my home. The male has been pretty aggitated and calls for attention constantly. Its really sad watching him grieve. Then my computer died, then I had a gas leak. All the same week. During the week, my boss and friend from my old job called and asked me to fill in for her at work. She lost a couple of employees while on vacation and had no one to fill in for her. So I went to work yesterday and will go again today. I made it ok yesterday, but was pretty shaky when I got home. But this morning I woke up with a renewed spirit! Dan, My husband of 31 years was disabled for almost 20 years of our marriage. I watched as he went through different stages of depression and then renewed strentgh over those years. He had diabetes, heart disease, decreased kidney function, decreased lung capacity, and was legally blind. He was so limited to the things he could do. He felt like a failure not only as a husband and father, but also felt like a drain on society. He never accepted that he worked and deserved SS. It took him many years to become resigned to his lifestyle. His doctor told him that he needed to get up at the same time every morning, make his bed, shower and then if he wanted to go back to bed he could. He took his dr's advice but somehow he never went back to bed. He finally began to do things for our church and the community. He was an expert on the computer, so people brought computers to him to work on, (with magnifying glass in hand). He helped establish the video ninistry in our church by teaching others how to do the work. I'm telling you all this to let you understand that I understand from a man's point of view what you must be going through. There is a place in everyone's life that we can still be useful and needed even though it will be on our terms with limited physical ability. I am also telling you all this to remind myself that I can find the strength within myself to accept the help of others (thank you Cheryl) and to find where I can be of benifit in my family and community. Today is a new day. I WILL get up and make my bed. Then I may lay back down on it and read a book! lol Thanks for listening, Eva


tara
july 25, 2007 new to this site, had anyone used the new drug lyrica for fms????? I just started. I am 37 yr old and has had fms for 15 years. i am very active and havetried many natural treatments much $ later. I am now resorting to medical drugs. I am at my end of choices. Also, I just got MUA done, manipulation under anesthesia, that hasn;t helped. Thanks Sweet N Low


louloupix-july 25 2007
JULY 25 2007 I'm glad I found this site.It has really taught me alot.I haven't been diagnosed with FM yet but will be in the very near future.I have been suffering since December of 2006,I know that seems like a short time for all of you that has suffered so long.I have been very discouraged by all the doctors and all the medicines i have been put on just to have them say there is nothing wrong with me.I'm greatful for the doctor that finally figured it out.Just wanted to thank everyone who posted messages that will help alot of other people.


Renee 7-24-07
7-24-07 Hi my is Renee and I struggle with FMS. I have hypothyroidism but, I am tired all the time hurt and suffer from migraines and my thyroid is under control. I am busy have three kids and trying to keep up with my household. I get fed up with feeling bad. Thankfully I have a wonderful husband that is very compassionate. Any suggestions?


Libby/TX 7.26.07
hello to all...welcome to the newbies...all is welcome having had fm long time or not fully diagnosed. Please if you come here...try to stay here to get some kind of support. We know too well that if you live with someone that is healthy ...you may not get the understanding from them nor the time just to vent. Our families seem to think that we let this become who we are and that it is just something we have to deal with. I say.." Until they can feel what we feel...then they should show more compassion for the fact that they knew us before we came down with all of the confusing symptoms". I personally know it's been tough for me just getting my husband to read my fm book that pretty much explains the confusion for this syndrome. I think that he would be more understanding...all thou just recently I have had new symptoms that required new testing and we are waiting for those results. I kind of deep down think that in my case that I may have more wrong then just fm...because I have had one autoimmune in the past....which was called Hashimotto's disease, which was a hyperthyroid disease. My throid was removed, becasue it caused a goiter and grew fast and began chocking me. They say that some people that get one autoimmune disease could possibly get another....I hope not!! Well...again A BIG WELCOME TO ALL!!!! Closing for now, warm fizzies to all! Libby


Donna 7/26/07
Hello to everyone, To all of the Newbies I want to welcome you and wish that you didn't have to join us but glad that you have found us and hope that we can be helpful. I haven't been on in awhile and I have noticed that several folks are asking about the Lyrica, I found it funny as I was telling someone just this a.m. that if I believe it to be the miracle of drugs and noticed the difference in just 24 hours. I have taken it for over a year and the only side effect that I have with it is weight gain but then again I also quit smoking at the same time, after 34 years! If any of you are smokers, I don't think that anyone that knew me thought that I could kick the habit but I have not had a smoke in 13 months so if I can do it you can too. Hazy Hot and Humid here in VT today and I am ready for a tepid bath right now, no tub at work, geez what is wrong with putting in a request for that? Have a great evening everyone.


tinaTN07/26
hi to all on the wall! i am 30 years old and have had fm for 5 yrs and migraine ha's for 10 yrs. i was so happy when i found this web site its nice to chat with people like me and get great advice and moral support. my husband is very caring but i think hes heard me complain for so long that hes kind of numb and it maybe goes in one ear and right out of the other, so its great to chat with all of you. ive felt like i lost a huge part of myself for so long and im on so many meds and while reading all of your post i learned that my ear problem may be part of fm as well. okay well i have 2 children ages 11 and 8, and can use any advice or moral support that anyone wants to share as you all know all fm pts are very deppressed and my kids are very active and im very tired alot im constantly tryint to keep up with them and out of bed well thats all for now thanks for list.


caran7/26/07
Neven- I second what Starr said about checking local churches for food banks. When I was in high school it wass the only way we could afford to eat some weeks. It's not always the healthiest food- but when you're hungry it's a blessing.


kelli


carol happy 7/27/07
I recently wrote on the wall again, and someone wrote me back! And someone else responded to what I wrote. I can't tell you how much that means to me. Thank all of you so much for your support. One of the reasons I didn't write for so long was because I didn't feel like I could be of any support back. When I read the posts the names and circumstances become so confusing that it's impossible for me to write on one page and remember specifically what anyone said on the post page I can't see. Does that make any sense? I get so frustrated with myself. I laughingly say I used to be smart. Now I just fake it. I work a full time job and sometimes I can't remember a name to save myself. Even if it's a student I've had for 4 years. I just tell the kids I'm old, and what's your name. At first they thought I was kidding, but now they realize I know everything about them I should remember, just not their name right this minute. The more I stress the less likely I am to remember. If I just wait, it comes to me (right about the time I don't need it anymore - HA!). Does this fibro fog drive anybody else crazy? I guess you just have to try to have a sense of humor with it. Most of the kids really believe I am just old (I'm 48 - ancient to them). Sometimes the teachers and principal I work with look at me a little strange, but actually I'm pretty good at my job and so they let it slide. School is getting ready to start for me on Monday. I think the only day I had to myself this summer is today. I'm enjoying it. My son-in-law who turned 26 on July 1rst went to the doctor for chest pain, and to make a long story short the doctor found 3 major arteries clogged, one 100%, one 95%, and one 75%. They put in two stents and told my daughter to take her 4 year old son to the doctor immediately. The cardiologist believes my son-in-laws's artery that is completely blocked has probably been so since he was about 10. They don't have any medical insurance, he can't work for at least 2 weeks, and my daughter is a full time college student getting ready to student teach in 2 weeks. I know there are programs out there that help people pay for their medicines and if anyone knows who I should contact I would appreciate the help. The cardiologist said if he didn't get on this medicine he was as good as gone. Whatever we have to do to help him I am willing to do. He is a very good husband to my daughter and a good father to my grandchildren. We're getting a new school record system this year. I am the "expert" on the school records, which is hysterical considering I can't even use my dvd player and couldn't have a computer if it weren't for my techinically smart husband. It's amazing what you can do when you have to. We have training Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I went ahead and worked extra nonpaid days in June so that I could get students in classes in the old system and run rosters for the teachers. If this new system is not working right, hopefully we can use the paper rosters to get everyone to class the first day. It's always such a zoo. I am very lucky because the secretary I work with came to work on the same day as me. We get along great, cover each other's back and enjoy each other's company. She will retire in about 2 years and I don't know what I'll do without her. I have found in my old age that there are very few people who you can trust and enjoy like that. I try to be the same back to her. I am much better at corresponding to people one on one. If anyone wants to write me to tell me how bad they hurt, or how badly they sleep, or how little anyone in their family understands, I would be glad to write back. Once again, thanks for letting me read your wall. carol happy


kathleen 7/27/07
My name is kathleen and i am new to this site,like how do you read the responses? i have had fibro now for two years after having hip surgery it just started bad in my hands and now my legs and shoulders are most affected. They give me approx 200mg of morphine every day which works about 75% of the time. Sometimes my skin feels burning also. I am a 45 year old wife and mother ofthree who has some mental illness stuff going on like depression and OCD i am just looking for some support I wish everyone well.....ps..i am sick of using a wheelchair and a walker............


Betty 7/28/07
Hi ya'll from Mississippi. My name is Betty and I have fibromyalia. I was diagnosed several years ago by my small town Dr. I don't take anything for it but elivil and ambien at night. I have an appointment the 28 and 29 of August with a doctor in Pineville, Louisiana that specializes in Fibro and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I am very hopeful that he can help me because my cousin went about 3 months ago and she said she is 100 per cent better. I will post treatement when I find out what they are gonna do. Don't give up the ghost I have had it for 14 years with no relief but I truly believe the end is in sight for pain and I am gonna find relief. Keep the faith.


kathleen 7/28/07
hi betty. this is Kathleen i am new. Icant believe you have both fibro and chronic fatigue. my fibro wears me out just so much i cannot stand it anymore it interferes with my family life and daily routines but yet i am not disheartened i am a very strong person who has been thriugh a lot so i am getting used to having pain. of course if i went off my drugs....anthow just saying hello nice to meet you


Caran7/28/07
Hi All!

Carolhappy - I'm a teacher too. Do you work full time teaching? How do you handle it? I had to leave at the end of the last school year when things went bad. I'll be working a couple afternoons this coming school year, but that's all I can handle! When I forget names (which I do regularly) I just tell the kids that I know who they are, but my brain forgot their name!

So a funny thing happened (OK not funny at the time) I was home alone last week and I started fainting. I kinda freaked out and called 911. They took me to the hospital and they kept me in emergency for over 5 hours pumping liquids into me because I was seriously dehydrated and my (usually too high) blood pressure was too low. I stopped taking my blood pressure meds and saw my doctor. Apparently the changes I've made in my lifestyle and the new meds I'm taking for the fibro caused my body to "accidently" cure my high blood pressure! Now . . . how can I "accidently" cure the fibro???

I'm taking Cymbalta and Lyrica this week. Has anyone noticed the side effects on this med? Headache, dizzyness, tiredness . . . How can you tell if the meds not working, or if it IS but you're experiencing the side effects!!!! Tee Hee.

Keep writing everyone. Just reading other people's stories is suportive for me!

Caran


Eva/OK 7/28/07
Hello Everyone! Caran, I have always found it "funny" that my medication for Migraines could cause headaches, some of the sleep aids list drowsiness as a side effect! Go figure! lol. Does the heat seem to bother anyone besides me? Just getting out to go to the store zaps what little energy I have left. I do everything I need to do outside early in the morning....when I can drag myself out that early! I am on Cymbalta 30mg at this time. In a couple of days I will increase to 60mg. Those of you that take this, does it increase your appetite? I have gained a few pounds the last month. I haven't worked in the last 2 months therefore haven't been as active so that may be the cause. I can't tell that the Cymbalta has done any better than the Prozac I have been taking for years. I go back to the Doc next week. I have been reading about how much pain everyone has. I have pain also, but compaired to some of you, I don't seem to have as much. My worst problem seems to be the fatigue. I feel as though I am constantly walking against a current with 500lb weights on my shoulders. I have trouble just taking a shower and washing my hair. I have to wait about an hour or so to dry and curl my hair. It takes to much energy to wear makeup and put on lotion, so I just do without. My tempurpedic bed has helped a great deal with pain in the pressure points, and with pain in my skin. I had always had skin pain from the wrinkles in the sheets, or the seams in my gowns. Those problems have pretty much been resolved with the bed. I hope you all have a restful and pleasent weekend. Eva


Sue July 28
Sue July 28 Hi Bonnie I just read the posts for the 1st time in a long time. I have had a lot of internet and computer problems and with my memory being so tiny I can't remember if I read your e-mail about that medicine or not. Anyway, my sister finally got it this month and she doesn't think it is very good. Her dr. only gave her small doses which did not compare with the oxycotin she was taki ng. I think he reduced it quite a bit and as everyone knows LESS IS A BAD THING! My pain has been in my feet and legs and is so bad my medicine does not help much lately. I have tried just about every med. that everyone has mentioned on the posts that I've read.Part of mine is diabetic nerve pain but I have some feet problems too. I feel for each one who writes in about their pain and wish I could help all of you. I can and will pray that God gives us what we need to keep going.And that He gives us peace when we are beyond going.I guess we all feel guilty when we can't do what we need to do but we have to take care of ourselves! If we don't, who is going to? lol I wish you all well and ask for prayers for my own pain if you would. Thanks!


ms.mary 07/28/07
I was so happy to find this web site. What a great gift.
I seen it on the television. The commercial itself was helpful in that
some new people I spoke with say "oh! yeah I've seen something about that
on the T.V.. which seems to legitimize it for them.

I've been diagnosed with fibromyalgia (amoung other things)since 03-97 and
its been very difficult. I'm very excited about this web site and the drug
lyrica that I seen here. I go to the doctor 8-3-07.I will ask him about it
I'll write again letting you all know what he says. I am very much in need
of friends and or people to talk to that understand what I am going through
and maybe there will be a way for me to help others. I'm also looking for
a support group that meets in my area. Thanks to whoever started this site
and blessings to all who have or love someone with fibromyalgia. M.E.


Patty 7/29/07
Hi, I suffered with fibromyalgia for a year. I spent 12,000 dollars and saw 9 doctors. Only 2 of them told me it could be a food allergy so I was in the process of eliminating foods with no results. My neighbor told me to call her pastor Lynn since she had suffered with fibromyalgia and got rid of it. I called Pastor Lynn and she told me she had gone through the Mayo Clinic and was told there was no cure , she would have to live with fibromyalgia. Her friend told her to go to thr Allergy Clinic in LaCrosse, Wisconsin. There she was told she was allergic to milk products and all of the nightshade vegetables (potatoes, peppers, tomatoes). I'm making a very long story short, but that very night I quit eating ANY dairy, including foods with whey or casseinate or cow colostrum. In one day I was 50% better and am completely free of pain now. Milk was my culprit and I had developed the allergy after abdominal surgery when I was on liquid diets for a long time (I overdid milk). Now I can occasionally have dairy without bad results since I cleaned it all out of my system. My email address has my name in it so I can't give it here.


Laura Sunday July29, 2007
LauraPR. Hi my name is Laura Lisa,i am 38 years old and i am a fibromyalgia patient, i need help. Help, because i feel like i am at the end of the road, i cannot stand anymore the pain, the hurt, the burning sensation. I try not to think about it and continue with my life but its not been easy. The truth i am starting to hate my life, I have been through so many kinds of medicine that there are days i don't want to take my pills. My e-mail address in laura22044@aol.com


Cheryl 7/29/07
Hi to everyone!

To Eva...I had a cocketeil and she died of being egg bound. I would have liked to save her. I got her from the Animal Res. Lg. and she was very personable in time. She would lay 5 or 6 eggs after awhile every 3 months or so. No male with her. I had no plans for this just wanted a cocketeil. I read books and talked to people about the eggs. They thought she became comfortable with her surroundings that this was happening for it never happened at the An.Res.Lg. I buried her under our Hibiscus Bush. I different birs buried in our yard and presently have two parakeets. Both females we hope. We might put two males with them yet I am waiting. I was told that with four they will feel uneasy to think about eggs and mating. Well what does this have to do FMS. Another focus. There is more to life than pain and that is my perservering being. When pain I just say be kind to me and this will pass too. It does and until it returns again I try enjoy my days. I was told this won't kill me it just may feel like you want to die.

My foot is in a sneaker 3 days now. When late day it comes off. Enough is enough. And I love my new comp - it's sooo much quicker. We put the old one out on the curb and someone took it. Cheap way to be rid of it without paying.

Renee....after I was diagnosed with hypothyroid years back I was very sick in bed for 3 months. My blood levels became normal yet the pain was continual. The search began and found I have FMS. Many I talked with had a similiar experience. I am not saying this is a sure shot reason for FMS yet it is interesting to think about. Hormonal stuff I think about. One day I believe will know yet till then I do what I can do. Having 3 children was my beginning before they thyroid dying on me. One left to live with his Mom(I am a step-mom)while the other two(twins)were with me when they thyroid went. I quit work and was in bed. Some aid from them and much for me to get understood and eventually work on. Mine were older than yours. I believe it's hard being a young Mom with children and if working if so and try to find time for yourself when needed. I pray you find to be easy on yourself at this time. I needed to be my best friend for I could be my worse enemy. Like a parent to a child to be caring. It's not selfish it's self caring. Take care.

Blessings in health to all! Cheryl


caran 7/29/07
Hi All! In response to Eva/OK's question - I feel worse not with the heat, but when the humidity is high. My sister put it great she says that the gravity's stronger on days like that. Anyway, I'm often achy, nausea, and have the firery pain up and down the spine on days like that. Oh yea, and the migraine. I just stay indoors and turn up the AC. Alone day for me!!!

To all those out there at the end of your rope, DON'T DESPAIR!!! Know that we're here for each other and that others are thinking of you. Personally, I think this is my body's way of telling me to slow down and go back to my art, instead of worrying about teaching.

Here's wishing you all more good days then bad.

Caran


JuneKaye July 30
JuneKaye Ohio 7/30 Hello to all!! I found that Cymbalta suppresses my appetite, but 60mg makes me too tired in the afternoon so I only take 30 mg. I have hypothyroidism and take pills, but even tho' my appetite is low I still don't lose weight because of the hypothyroidism. I do need to exercise, but am lazy about getting started. I feel fortunate that if I had to have fibromyalgia it was after my children were grown and I was retired--I don't know how you younger people cope with it. I can rest when I need to and have no particular schedules to meet. Weather changes bother me alot, but I think I tend to deal with cooler weather better than this summer heat. Going from hot outdoors to cool in stores with AC is "not a good thing" for me. The worst pain I have is in my upper back, shoulders and arms---deep aching pain---I use a heating pad and ThermaCare patches often---also Activon---it doesn't smell strong like other ointments and pain relievers.


Lisa 7/30/07
Lisa 7/30/07

Someone said that they don't post sometimes because they can't remember who said what in previous posts. Hey! Get out of my head! Somedays I can't remember anything.

Saw my physician today. She is very reluctant to prescribe a narcotic pain reliever. I'm with her.....so far. Honestly I'm getting very tired of just "muscling" my way thru. We are going to try Salsalate for pain and Migquin for my headaches.

I'm just hoping for a little relief. Everyday is a struggle. I am a single mom, one of my sons has "special needs" and is 3 years old, and I am the sole support we have. It's hard, but I refuse to give up or give in.

Someone sounded so despondent (I'm sorry I don't remember your name) and I wanted you to know that we are all here. I've had a couple of very nice encouraging and informational emails from the members of the wall.

Oh and I have one more issue I'm dealing with that maybe one of you has some input on. I was injured at work almost a year ago. I am dealing with Workman's Comp now. I suffered a "whip-lash" type injury and it just is not getting better. I have an Independent Medical Exam at the end of August. The state is trying to determine just how "impaired" I am. My FMS diagosis is so recent and I'm still learning so much how can I tell what ouchie is caused by which. So do I just list out all of my aches and pains, tell them about the FMS, or what?

SSI would be a dream come true, but I can't stop working in order to file.....

Ok, enough of that. I hope all of you have deep and restfull sleep.

~Lisa


Laura 07/30/2007
Hi again everyone. Oh my god i feel emotionally well and it is all because of you guys thank you so much. I have received so much support and i have read at least twice the e-mail's i received. The truth i am going through some really tough times right now and stress is not helping my FMS. But every day i pray to God he sends me soon some good days. I am 38 years old, I have 2 girls 15 and 16 that are my pride and joy, I am a Law Enforcement Agent and I haven't been able to work since Feb. 2006 and the company i work for doesnt pay social security, only have a retirement plan, that will take at least 18 more months for approval (if Approved). Sometimes i hate myself for being sick , for needing the little money i get from child support (300.00 a month) for my dr's bills and med's but sometimes i love myself for being strong and fighting to get us through every day. Thank-you so much everyone. Good night


Dee (Our Birthday) July 31st
Happy Birthday Bonnie/Iowa From Your Evil Twin


Libby/TX 7.31.07
Hello to all...

I havn't posted in a few weeks now since I was going thru testing and waiting for my results. I'm glad to report that my ENT told me my tests are normal. This is good and confusing...I'm glad that there is not anymore wrong at the same time...I 've spent more money on this just to point at FM again. By the way newbies I am one that has had this Fm for 25 or more years and welcome to the site. In all the years I have spent so much money and time on my medical problems and this Fm does get confusing at times. When I come down with something I naturally want to blame it on Fm..but sometimes I will and can get confused and it makes me think that it can be something else.

To all that is having hard time with depression...just remember that this is also a symptom of Fm....it to will soon pass(come and go) try not to let it take you too far. BE STRONG AND LET IT PASS!! Like I tell many...you can go to bed blue, but you can wake up the next day singing like a bird!

Hey has anyone seen the T.V. commercial for FM. I was so shocked to finally see a commercial for our condition. I know that SS is trying to validate FM...and when I found this out, I knew that more doors would open. Please forgive me but I 'm getting excited because I'm finally seeing more done with us and they are looking closer at FM. You see I have had this so long now that I am one of those that the world looked at as crazy...when the world thought we were pysco or hypercondriacs. Today I got a brochure for a FM center..which I'm finding out they have several centers in several states.

Tomorrow will not be good day for me and my family. I have a sister-in-law that will have a breast removed and then tested for cancer. She has two large tumors in left breast and removing the breast is necessary since these are so large. Just about all the people I know want to think the worst...but I will remain hopeful until the doc tells us what is going on.Please keep her in your prayers...her name is Beth. Thank you for caring and sharing! I must go for now.Warm fuzzies to all and to all a good night! Libby


Cris/AZ/08-01-07
Hello to everyone. I hope you all are coping the best you can today. I started morphine yesterday. I was very weary about it since Methadone was such a horrible experience for me. There really wasn't many choices left so I'm gonna try not to beat myself up about it. Still holding on to Lord to get me through. My husband (sniper in Afghanistan) finally got some air conditioning. They have had a lot of blackouts at their FOB. I wish you all the best. Your courage is very inspiring. I can't imagine having this for 20+ years. Take care and take it easy. Soft Hugs to all.


ms.mary 08/01/07
Hello again to everyone as I said before things seemed to be going fairly
well considering I've been dealing with FMS for 10 years. My family is
really tired of me and has asked me not to contact them anymore that they
don't want to have anything to do with me. I'm not exactly sure what I did
I tried to be fair and honest and not complain I gave them infomation I
found but they choose not to read it. At first they Tried to cure me when
that failed they decided I must not be living a christian life because God
would never allow a faithful child of his to suffer. I feel like I don't
belong anywhere and that I'm vry much alone in this world. I sold my house
in Oklahoma offering my mother $10,000.00 to do some minor repairs.I signed
it over to her so she could more easily sell it. Biggest mistake of my life
She waited a year to start, Leaving me with no savings as Iwas living on it
When it was finally sold after everything was paid there was a balance of
$83,000.00. She sent me $15,000.00 to buy a car then stated that the rest
she was keeping for my own good as I was not good at managing money.

then one day as we argued she just came out and said she was stealing the
money and there was nothing I could do about it as I had signed over the
house to her. That she never wanted to see or here from me again. That I
was a useless human being and the world would be a better place if I would
just hurry up and kill myself get it over with.

Today I've come to better terms with what my mom has done and said to me
I moved to California with a old friend (I rent a room )I live off of my
social security witch isn't that much but I'm able to manage. My friend and
I have become intimate and He has been good about trying to understand FMS
and all that goes with that. We fought today I bought a pack of cigerettes,
He said that we are not on the same page in life, as he is trying to get
healthier and I am always fighting just to feel well enough to do basic
things. In anger he said I needed to find somewhere else to live. I am
so afraid I don't have anywhere to go no friends or family. no home
or money. I do have my car at least a PT cruiser I could sleep in the back
I'm so alone, useless, scared, and I don't know where to turn. I feel like
taking my own life may be the best for everyone. I take so many meds i'm
sure I could overdose on it. I'm crying out for any suggestions.HELP ME!!
I'm open to any suggestions. I'm praying for Guidence. Bless all who took
the time to read this and I pray that everyone always feels loved.M.E.


Sue Aug 1
Sue Aug 1 MSMARY,I read your post tonight and I beg you not to let thoughts of hurting yourself stay in your head or cause you to try to do something. It sounds like you have a lot of pain and problems in your life but it CAN get better! A couple of yrs ago I was mental and depressed and thought I could not go on. The Fibro is Horrible and then I went thru a divorce that shocked everyone in my life and caused me to want to die. But my life does not belong to me and I knew at every minute that I have no right to take a life that God gave me. Now I still suffer Fibro but I fight the depression. Read these posts and see that there are so many people suffering. I am not saying that your problems are not bad ones. I can't imagine life without my kids and grandkids. We don't know what is just around the corner for us. A year from now you might be in a complete different life that is full of love and happiness. I think that all of us with Fibro have to battle depression. But FIGHT is the key word. If we look long enough we can find others who have it so much harder than we do. We can help our own depression by helping someone worse off than ourselves. I try to be thankful for what I still HAVE. If it will help you to 'talk' about your problems, this is a good place to come to. We all are in the same boat or one just like it. I pray things go better for you very soon


Cris/AZ/8-1-07
Ok just wanted to clear up my last comment. The soldiers are losing power. Hower blackouts are when a soldier can't call home because another soldier was killed and no calls can go out from there until the family is notified. With all the "blackouts" they have had it's pretty upsetting. Well anyways I just thought I would tell you what's going on with my little family. Mary I hope you got my e-mail. Love and prayers to all.


Eva/OK 8/02/07
MSMary, I read your post and "heard" you. Over the years, I have suffered depression even before the FMS. I have learned over my 57 years to take one problem at a time. Over the 31 years of marriage, I have dealt with my husbands illness, my daughter's illness, financial difficulties, bad jobs and just life! My Mother told me at one time to put some of my problems on "lay-a-way" and deal with the most important trial first. It was good advice. When things got to where they overwhelmed me I would do just that. List my problems and priortize. Mary, try to look at every problem seperately. All together they can bring you so far down that you can't seem to get back up. First of all you need some place to stay, get some counceling, and take care of your body and mind. Forget the things you can't do anything about. Next thing to remember is that you have friends here on the wall. Talk to us and let us help you. None of these problems are more important than your life. Love yourself first and then you can learn to love your enemies. God and us "wallies" will be here for you.


Phyliss 8-2-2007
PhylR Just found this site. Been suffering for years. Been diagnosed and treated for Graves disease,plantar faciatis,carpal tunnel,insulin resistance,depression, nonspecific colitis,hypertension,GERD and other maladies. In reading some of your posts I see some others with similar problems. Please someone talk to me about your experiences. My family MD. just sort of shrugs off the possiblity of fibromyalgia. I was seeing a chiropractor at one time and he did the pressure points test on me and told me that was what was causing my probs. I work as a nurse in a nursing home and as only you-all can understand I suffer daily. Blessings to all of us.


Eva/OK 8/02/07
MSMary, I read your post and "heard" you. Over the years, I have suffered depression even before the FMS. I have learned over my 57 years to take one problem at a time. Over the 31 years of marriage, I have dealt with my husbands illness, my daughter's illness, financial difficulties, bad jobs and just life! My Mother told me at one time to put some of my problems on "lay-a-way" and deal with the most important trial first. It was good advice. When things got to where they overwhelmed me I would do just that. List my problems and priortize. Mary, try to look at every problem seperately. All together they can bring you so far down that you can't seem to get back up. First of all you need some place to stay, get some counceling, and take care of your body and mind. Forget the things you can't do anything about. Next thing to remember is that you have friends here on the wall. Talk to us and let us help you. None of these problems are more important than your life. Love yourself first and then you can learn to love your enemies. God and us "wallies" will be here for you.


brenda 8-02-2007
Hi, my name is Brenda. This is the first time I have been on the wall. I have been reading all of ur logs. I have fibro since 1992 and for the last couple of months I have really been in bad pain! I take morphine for pain also darvocet and muscle relaxer, nerve med. I also retain fluid and my muscles swell and have fever in them. I was wondering if anyone else had the same symptoms? I'm glad to know that I'm not alone w/ this monsters disease! But I'm sorry that anyone else has to feel this pain! O.K. Bye for now. Hope to read replies soon!


ms. mary 08/03/07
Hello again, I am really blessed to have found this place. A place where I
can tell how I feel and find that I am not alone. Thanks to all that
responded to my rambling post. I took your advice and took each problem
one at a time. I found some answers and I'm still working on others.
You all made me feel welcomed and I new I was no longer alone.

Today I go to the pain dr. I'm on a fentynal patch, norco for break through
pain.klonopin for nerves, cymbalta for depression, maybe I should ask
about a dosage change on the antidepression med. ha ha But instead of more
pills I believe I found a better solution this web site. again Thank you
Soft hugs and blessings to you all. ME


Barbara 8/3/07
Hi everyone im a newbee to the wall nice to meet all of you.I am 45 years old and have had FMS for seven years, I was finally diagnosed five years ago,for two years not knowing what was wrong with me was horrible,a doctor i had at the time even sent me to a shrink, needless to say that did not help.I cant believe so many other people have this, I finally won my social security disability case it only took me 4 and 1|2 years. Its so nice to know that there is a place that i can come to talk to people that are feeling the same as me. ;) Barbara


Debbie 8/03/07
Hi Friends, I've missed Ya'll this week! We've been without our pooter, and I'm happy to have it back. I read all of the posts and see that there are alot more Newbies, like me. Welcome to all! We're blessed to have found this site!! Some people may call us "moaners", but they are the ones that I feel sorry for. We've got a great family here!! We're learning and sharing, and understanding that everyone is not alike, as far as what works or not. I'm blessed to be here...I can't say it enough.

To those that believe that their lifes are over...think again! You will find strength in yourself that you never knew existed. Every day for me is a challenge, but it is also a reward. I'm learning that I've been working way to hard, stressing over stuff I can't fix, and worrying for nothing. Life is a gift, and if it means that I live in pain, well, I have faith that God will give me the strength to go forward, even if I'm a little slower. Slowing down has shown me "other" traits within me, that I would have probably never realized.

To those that asked for prayer...you're on my prayer list...even those who didn't ask. I hope you'll keep me in your prayers also.

The phrase,"Never put off till tomorrow, what you can do today", has a whole new meaning for me.

I really, really wish Ya'll the best!


SueE.
Hi, I am new to the Wall, but I have been reading your posts for the last week or so. In just reading your posts, I have found comfort in knowing that I am not alone, but when you go through extreme pain, you feel that you are. Now I will be able to come here for encouragement and support. I suffered whiplash injuries in a MVA and have just been diagnosed this year. As with others, it took a long time to be diagnosed. My pain is from the waist down; however, lately I am having shooting pain coming out of my upper arms and I just hope it is not spreading upwards!! I have been doing a lot of reading since March and we have an excellent site in Canada (fm.cfs.ca) for any of you who are interested. I have found so much information there. There is also a Clinical Case Definition and Guidelines for Medical Practitioners for FMS which EVERY doctor should have. There are also guidelines for patients which includes all kinds of info, including all the stretches, relaxation techniques, etc., etc. I encourage you all to go to the site. I'm not sure who wrote about the TV commercial for FMS, but I would really like to know which channel it's on. We have Star Choice, so I am sure we should have the channel. Please let me know. Thanks. Hang in there everybody and I hope you all have a good day.


Cris/8-4-07
Hello. This has been some week for me I started morphinge tuesday. Then on Thursday my Internal medicine Dr. called and told me she found abnormalties on my MRI. She said I have Cervical formenial stenosis. She is refering me to an orthopedic surgeon. It explains why my pain is so intense. I know I still have fibro but maybey I can handle it better after surgery. I just would like to say to ms. Mary I am glad your feeling better. Also Cymbalta has a side effect of suicidal thoughts. It should say on you package insert. I had to get off of it for that reason. So maybey you can get on something else. I hope you are well and wish you the best days ever. Love Crishanna


Cris/8-4-07
Hello. This has been some week for me I started morphinge tuesday. Then on Thursday my Internal medicine Dr. called and told me she found abnormalties on my MRI. She said I have Cervical formenial stenosis. She is refering me to an orthopedic surgeon. It explains why my pain is so intense. I know I still have fibro but maybey I can handle it better after surgery. I just would like to say to ms. Mary I am glad your feeling better. Also Cymbalta has a side effect of suicidal thoughts. It should say on you package insert. I had to get off of it for that reason. So maybey you can get on something else. I hope you are well and wish you the best days ever. Love Crishanna


Cris/AZ/8-4-07
Sorry about that little repeat there.


Beth in Ohio 080507
It's been awhile since I have posted. July was a very busy month. We went to friends house on July 3 for the fireworks. They live right behind the park where the fireworks are shot off. We were able to sit in their driveway, drink beer (I only had one), eat too much food, and watch the show right up front. We also had a very busy month at work, which kept my husband and I hopping. But that was a good thing. Then we went to Sugarcreek (Amish country) the last week for our 11th wedding anniversary. We stayed 3 nights at the Carlisle Inn in a 1400 sq ft 2 bedroom suite because he wanted me to be able to sleep well. We could have just gotten two adjoining rooms, but he wanted to splurge just a little, even though we can't afford it. You have to do that for yourselves sometimes. It was wonderful. I even found a Curves nearby and worked out one morning. By the end of the month I had gaine back 2 1/2 pounds. I have lost a total of 31 pounds and this is the first time I have gained back, but I will keep on. I have 20 more to to.

Last night my uncle died of conjestive heart failure and a massive stroke. He has not been doing well for a long time. I don't know what my aunt will do without him. She is not in good health either, and is not able to drive very much. My mom does not have a drivers license so my brother is taking her over to her sister's house today. I am waiting to see what everyone is doing. I don't think she will want a crowd of people with her today. I will miss him. He was a good man and a very funny person to be around. Bye for now.


JUANITA AUG. 6TH
JUANITA/TX BETH, please except my condolences on the loss of you uncle, i know what it is to lose someone so dear to you. i hope you aunt will be ok. she has to just take it one minute at a time, not one day at a time because sometimes it is hard enough to just make it one minute instead of trying to make it one day. AGAIN, i send you my thoughts and prayes. JUANITA IN AUSTIN TX


Eva/OK 8/06/07
Hello fellow friends! I have not felt like sitting at the computer for several days now. I went to the Ruemy last week and we did some changing of my meds. I told my Doc about this web site and how it has helped me mentally. He had encouraged me to do that back in 2003 but I didn't need it since my husband was my support back then. He asked me if any of the support group had mentioned anything about Lyrica. I will start taking that after being on the Prozac for 3 weeks. He told me (get this Cheryl) that one of the side effects was being tired! I actually laught out loud and asked him how I would know it was a side effect. We both had a good chuckle. He took me off Cymbalta. I felt like it was not doing anything. So after 3 days of no meds, I went back on the Prozac with an increased dosage this time. The 1st day off Cymbalta was ok, but after that I was almost flat on my back. I did not have the energy to shower or change cloths for 2 days. It's a good thing I live alone! lol! My daughter kept a check on me and fed me and the dogs and the bird. I started on the Prozac yesterday but of course it will take a few days to see any difference. I was able to get a shower and put on fresh clothes. My daughter drove me to the vets office to take my toy poodle to have eye surgery. She is going blind and hopefully the surgery will stop that process. My computer has been acting up also. I have replaced the internal power supply, the mouse and printer. I just hope that fixes everything. Caren, I am having so much fun with my Cockatiel Buddy. He has learned to say "pretty bird", wolf whistle (which perks me up after not having a shower for 2 days) lol, and he calls the dogs. I also have a toy poodle, Cuddles and a 44lb Standard Poodle nicknamed Tiny. His registered name is Magic Whisper in the Night. He and I are going to start visiting the nursing home as soon as I can get enough energy. Beth, I am so sorry to hear about your uncle. My husband passed away at home of a heart attack so I know exactly where your aunt is mentally now. Please know that my heart goes out to you and your family. Tell your aunt for me that given time the wonderful memories will replace the pain.


Richard in Tucson August 09
Hi everyone; I thought I would make this short post to let you know I am still here. I have been trying to get caught up on reading the posts and I want to be able to comfort those here who seem to be suffering too much, I also would love to update you all. I have a ton of things to do today, but will try to get back here tomorrow. Talk to you then Love Richard in Tucson...


Libby/TX 8.9.07
HELLO TO ALL !!!!!!

I see alot of newbies here...welcome to our site!.We are sorry that you had to join us...but we wouldn't want you anywhere else if they don't understand you like we do. Hey...fm is not fun, but it's not giving up on us so it's better we try to understand it. To all that choose to take several meds....my heart goes out to you. I choose to take less...I personally can not take more. I feel worse with too many chemicals in my system. I have had fm for 25 plus years now, I work a 24/7 contract job. This is one reason I don't take alot of meds....I couldn't drive and I need the income. My husband is a heart patient and he is still working until he just can't. To the person asking about the fm commercial....I can't remember what station on the T.V. it was on. I live in Texas and we have DIRECT T.V. I was literally shocked when I saw the commercial. I truly believe the world will change their attitude about the fm when they hear about it more.

To all of you that are dealing with emotional pain with fm...I hear you loud and clear. The depression is terrible and I felt myself going down today because I'm dealing with alot on my plate, but tomorrow I will have to prioritize and fight it. Mary I hope things better for you! Hey Sue...sorry I couldn't be of much help to you on the commercial! Beth my sister-in-law did have cancer and we are waiting on the lymph node reports, but good news the bone scan is negative and we hope to keep it that way. There is too much cancer in our lives....so I guess I will continue to feel blessd, because we could have it worse. I do know that alot of you have mutiple problems...my heart is with you. Well...everyone stay as strong as you can, and continue to hope for the answers to solve the mystery of fm and other conditions. Signing off now....warm fuzzies to all and to all good night. Libby


Amber in S.C.....August 10th
Hi everyone! Haven't posted in a while, but i have been keeping up by reading all of the posts written on here. I have had a lot of pain lately with my Fibromyalgia....bone, muscle, and nerve pain. Now i have a new symptom that i noticed about 2-3 weeks ago. I noticed a tennie-tiny lump or cyst on my back under the skin that's in the muscle. Didn't think too much about it and it really didn't bother me at first. But now it has gotten bigger... and fast. It is now the size of a pea or maybe a little bigger. Before you couldn't see it..just feel it...but now you can do both. I feel it when i lay back or put pressure on it from sitting back on the couch. Sometime it hurt some to touch it. If you push it in just a little too much to feel it and see how large it has gotten or the shape of it...it sends a sharp pain . I do have a doctor's appointment coming up on August 16th to discuss the Fibro and insomnia and now i'm going to have to bring this to her attention. Has anyone had a cyst like this before on this site? It scares me about it because cancer of all kinds runs on both sides of my family and i also had a pre-cancerous mole taken off my leg last year. I know it may be benign, but it still worries me because of the family history. If anyone has had this kind of a cyst before..let me know. I'm just wondering if it's from the fibro, connective tissue, cancer or what. And hopefully also my doctor will be able to tell me what it is and why i have it. Let me go for now..everyone take care and i'll talk to you all later. Have a good day and gentle hugs to all!


Libby/TX 8.10.07
Goodmorning to all...

Hey Amber, sorry that you are having so much trouble lately....fm is enough to deal with! About your cyst on your back, in my family we have a history of fatty tumors and they can and will pop up anywhere. I have had 2 removed and right now I have 4 that are growing, but not bothering me right now. Usually the only reason we get them removed is where they are located...as on top of muscles or painful areas. These tumors are no harm to us. I had one removed on my left arm on top of the main muscle between the wrist and elbow, because it was putting pressure on the nerve that finally started to numb my left hand. My brother had one removed on his clavacial that was 7 inches long. Now I have to admit that one did scare the family and we did think it was cancer. Oh....the other one was on the bottom of my left foot. This one eventually caused damage to my nerves again. In our feet the damage is more severe, cause when the damage is done it is called neuromas and that part of the nerves that gets damage turns into what feels like rocks in your feet...very painful. I hope that I have been of some help to you, because I don't wish for you to have something worse. Oh...you might not want to press on it too much until you find out what it is. Take care...AND WARM FUZZIES TO YOU AND EVERYONE ON THE WALL! Libby


Cris/AZ/8-11-07
Hello everyone. I had read in some previous posts that someone was talking about a commercial on fibro. So I think I foud it on fibrohope.org. Check it out. Best wishes and soft hugs to all.


Summer 8/12/07
Hello everyone,

I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia a year ago and have now found out what's actually wrong with me. Turns out I have Lyme's Disease. I wanted to give my story just in case someone might benefit from it. If my story can help prevent one person from going through the trauma I have experienced, then I have served my purpose. I'm not saying that all fibro cases are indeed a result of Lyme's Disease but I think it's worth looking into.

I was bit by a tick in 2003 and had a small red round rash around the bite site. I was ignorant of tick bites at the time and just thought it was an allergic reaction (like a mosquito bite). 6 months later, my battle began. I had extreme muscle, joint nerve pain.

If caught immediately, Lyme Disease can be easily treated w/ antibiotics. The problem is, testing for Lyme’s is not reliable and 60% of Lyme sufferers have a false-negative result.

Over the years, I went to countless doctors and spent thousands of dollars trying to figure out what was wrong with me. At that point a couple years had passed and I went into full blown Lyme’s Disease. I had Parkinson like symptoms (convulsions, tremors, memory loss), I had MS symptoms (speech problems, difficulty walking, numbness and tingling in my extremities and face). I had fibromyalgia symptoms (chronic pain, fatigue) and last but not least I had auto-immune disorder symptoms (swollen lymph nodes, perpetual low grade fever). Lyme Disease is known as the “Great Imitator”. It can mimick many disorders.

Many of those untreated will suffer chronic debilitating illness. Some unknowingly will pass the disease on to their unborn children.

The average time from infection to diagnosis is 4.7 years. Most are misdiagnosed for years with incurable conditions such as chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, lupus, multiple sclerosis, Alzheimers or ALS. I ca